Unsolicited Destiny : My Reminiscence

Another Christmas, Another New Year....

2011-01-09T04:29:00.002+08:00

Like any other year, 2010 ended with lots of celebrations, love, friends, family and foood... except that for me it was with the additional terrible cold (temperature was as low as -22!!!n we were out freezing waiting for delayed trains) and major stress from piling workload...

Well it's 2011 now! Alot is going to happen, and I can only pray and hope for the best to happen=) I believe it's going to be a big year for me...but I am only aiming to live through the next 360 days in contentment and takign a day at a time. hopefully I'll land myself a goood career path....(oh of coursehopefully I graduate smoothly)

Of course I"d like to give a little shout out to my dearest love, thank you for giving me the beautiful memories and always being patient and loving with me=) looking forward to what 2011 has installed for the both of us! *hugs*

and to family and friends half way across the globe, I can only send my warmest greetings and love, may the Lord bless your journeys ahead and hopefully I"ll make it home for a visit end of the year=))))

currently I"m up to something sneaky and exciting!!!! I am so happy over it..... cant wait for the fruits of it..... =) =) =)

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migrationsverket pa torsdag..

2010-12-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

So earlier today both Kaj and I went to Malmo to the migrationsverket office to apply for my residence permit as cohabitants (despite the crazy snow storm/blizzard outdoors, and my PMS, we made it there)
Good thing we left for it early, there wasnt a queue, but as soon as we came out about 1 hour later there was a massive crowd.
well anyways, sicne my student permit is expiring in June as soon as I graduate, we thought that it would be best to apply for my residence permit now (on the account of being cohabitants + in a steady relationship) since according to the website it says the process may take up to 9 months. plus, with a permit its easier for me to get a job I suppose.To our surprise the lady who handled our application said it is pretty much settled and we can probably get the permit right away. great news! didnt expect it to be done within 24 hours....lol, panicked for nothing pfft.

But for the applciation to be complete, they needed us to asnwer some questionaire ( a whole booklet) instead of holding an interview session one on one. The questionaire was made exactly the same so that we can proof our relationship.....So we sat on opposite corners of the room and started answering...boy were we caught offguard.... eventhough being together for almost 3 years, you know at the back of your head there will somehow be somethings you wont quite know entirely. LOL oh boy.....(even my parents dont knwo which school they each went to after beign together 25 years) ....hah ok not a good excuse...Im makign it a point to get to know him better
I'd say the experience was pretty funny, I was smiling and laughign tomyself when I was going through those questions...I was pretty certain there are things that Kaj does not know lol...
I laughed so bad when he told me he answered "Aunty " for the question " what's your partner's mother's name?" hahaha.... I knew it, dont pay enough attention=p not that i did any better, of course i couldnt have put 'yi yi', but at least I got her last name=)

they asked everything from what is the colour/type of our sofa, who does the dishes, whats our fav food, who wakes up first, do we ahve breakfast, what we have for breakfast, do we have an alarm clock, who pays the bills, how big is the apartment, did the partner previously have a child or married, describe (in a whole essay) your partners youth, education, friends, free time activity, work, where have u travel togehter, where u plan to travel together, describe how, when, where u first met....etc etc....
LOL

the part where they ask if you plan to have children of your own I answered yes, n he left it blank...lol hwo convenient..tsk guys.....hahah, bet the evaluator will be suggesting future couselling..ha....
we should have another interview session, dont think jsut answering in a few pages on papers justifies much..

well at least this is settled, now I look forward to a good christmas, new year and a goood graduation....Job hunt in process.

here's to all (a few people who might read my blog now and then) a merry christmas and good new year!! I hope everyone's had a fruitful/eventful year 2010!

God Jul och Gott Nytt Ar!!!!!

It's December.....again...

2010-12-14T07:17:00.002+08:00

how many times have we said this: Time Freakgin Flies....?
I would use to say I cant believe it's christmas again, but this time around I think I"m gonna say, I'm afraid i'm gonna wake up tmr morning finding wrinkles on my face and a girl lying next to me calling me mommy *shrieks*

Alot (ALOT) has happened since the last post in August. Since the new semester started in August with the new MAsters Programme in Sustainable Business Leadership has beeen keepign me occupied as a full time student pretty much 24/7.
I cant say I"m not proud of myself though. I"ve been pretty consistent with my academic performance, although I"m kinda freaked out for the next and final term when I will have to write TWO separate masters thesis. One for the Sustainable Business Leadership and one for the social studies in Lund's Centre of Innovation, Research and Competence in the Learning Economy (CIRCLE)

I have yet to search for a goood thesis topic. I have 6 months until I graduate. hmmmm.... I think I have learned sooo much, and I am glad that I have chosen to come here, with God's grace being able to study in the same university with Kaj in this beautiful Country, couldnt have asked more. I have gained so much in experience, valueable knowledge, the people I met....I cant imagine not having been here ever, it made me realise how much more capacity in depth and various dimensions I could grow as an individual, a person.

Everything seems to have fallen into place perfectly..... both Kaj and I got into the SAME university out of so many choices; we got goood accomodations both times that we were applying/looking, blessed by the many friends we've met, being able to graduate with a double masters for free just before the government decides to impose tuition fees, a church just 1 block down the road, got an apartmnet right in the centre of town.... I"m grateful, I"m blessed that God answers my prayers, and always there to guide me and lift me when I need him most...
He's blessed me with Kaj who's always there to comfort me and encourage me through everything. he's such a jewel.... gentle and adorably funny all the time...(although God if you're reading this, I wouldnt mind if You took away his computer games and gadgets hehehe,jsut kiddin)...I love Kaj to bits :)

So Kaj's jsut started his PhD in August, he's got 3 .5 years to go....insanity...hehe but I do intend to join him, I reallly enjoy the academe, especially here in Lund, Sweden's top University, in the center of a research-industry triangle, awesome innovativeness and studying here is such a beautiful relaxing experience, fulfilling I must say. Cant help but constantly learning all the time, and I love the fact that at the end o the day, it makes me feel intellectual and I have grown jsut that little extra, character-wise. I am hoping that I could find a research field that I am interested in for 4 years of work (did I mention it comes with a good salary, employee social welfare, all the PERKS, your own office, etc, minus the high taxes of course)

Having said that, my main priority now is to look for a job. actually no wait, master the Swedish Language first. I"ve been looking into and applying for several job opennings now, it's abit early now but I"m hoping for the best. We'll see where God leads me in the next several months. hopefully someone will reply to my request for thesis projects.

On a side note, many things have happened :
1. started playing badminton with a group of KAj's colleagues every friday nights (at least msot friday nights that we are available)
2. making more home foood with the spices mom sent from home
3. met up with family in London, it was AWESOME!
4. made it to top 3 in a case study competition on sustainability hosted by the Congress, University and Cardo group (nerve wreckingly great experience)
5. spent a bomb on textbooks
6.it's been snowing here crazy
7.there are moments I've weep to myself wishing i could have my loved ones from home to magically appear here just for chitchats, or lepak.... and maybe bring some sunshine over to dark gloomy depressive swedish winter *sigh*
8. etc etc...

I will be heading to Kristianstad for the 2nd Christmas in Sweden next week, have yet to do our christmas shopping!!! I am looking forward to that soooo much (the christmas, not the shopping) despite all the heavy workload and stress I'll have to deal with over the 2 weeks break.hmm such is life...

btw, was on the webcam chatting with family today, I wish my mom will stop talking about weddings, and fussing about the venue and who I msut invite , where I should have it etc etc when I'm NOT EVEN ENGAGED!!!!, I"m dreading the day when I actually tell her I"m engaged, I am never, and I mean EVER gonna hear the end of it.....gotta find meself a goood wedding planner in d future to take over all the unnecesary headaches heee;)

Oh well that's all from me now,
hear from me soon , hopefully.

You Picked ME - Fine Frenzy

2010-08-05T11:42:00.002+08:00

From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive

"Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yea you picked me =) "

RSVP. in style.

2010-07-28T15:24:00.003+08:00

I L.O.V.E my girls, adore them *hearts*

Thank you for spending your time with me =)

(Rachel. Samantha. Venetia. Penny - July'2010)

home sweet home

2010-07-07T22:59:00.005+08:00

I'm back in KL for 2 months.... been back for 3 weeks and it's been good to be back! did some traveling, shopping n tonnes of eating i'm actually sick of eating! lol...
after 3 weeks n my luggages are still sitting at the corner of my room unpacked =) not proud of it....but where to start... i've got like 40 days left n I"ll have to pack again.just thinking about it is demotivating.... plus I've got tonnes of shopping bags laying around untouched.haha. n the amount of dust in my room @_@

anyways, it's been great to have both Kaj and Ulf here in KL, especialyl since it's Ulf's first time in Asia. I do hope he had a good time here, looking forward to come back in the future? we had a great time in Redang, Malacca, Singapore etc with family and friends. Now they're back enjoying the summer in Sweden and I"m left back here home alone most of the time since everybody is busy at work most of the time XD I miss the bf!!! n oh did I mentioned he started his PhD? I"m so very proud of u babe!! jag ar mycket stolt over dig!! (i hope i got that right! heeee)

have got tonnes of people to date and catch up with... 40 days to go....better put them to good use before I return in August and begin another year of stresss.... will be starting on my 2nd masters in August, along with my current masters programme, n graduate with both MA n MSc by June next year hopefully! =)
that's all for now, until next time ta~

missing u from KL hun *hugs*

ps: this blog is pretty dead n boring. am probably going to create a personal webpage soon!

Long awaited vacation!

2010-06-03T03:59:00.003+08:00

Hello world .....
in less than 14 days from now I will be back home-sweet-home..... Both Kaj n I have been looking forward to this trip for ages..especially since we both miss the food so much, and the weather here has been disasterously cold and gloomy and simply depressing for the past 6 months...
so KL here we come!!!!

I hope everything will fall into place smoothly until then. we're both currently working our butts off our final assignments for the year. ( although Kaj is pretty much done now, waiting to graduate on Monday with a MSc, and PhD on his way.. so proud of him!!! *muakz*; you know you've got my support baby!)
we'll have to pack up and move everything out by next week...so busy busy...

Anyways, I"ll be back home over the summer for 2 months!!!! a whole 2 months of pampering by loved ones!!! (my last chance of indulgence before the next torturous academic year starts)
Redang, singapore, Bali....so looking forward to travelling with loved ones..
to all the special peeps back in KL, Here I come!!!!

'cos you are the reason I"m counting down....

2010-05-13T19:16:00.003+08:00

I've been living here in Sweden for almost a year now.... cant say I've enjoyed it thoroughly, not especially without the love ones back home whom I wish to share all the joys with.... but in just "ett ogonblick" (a blink of an eye), it's not long now till I get to see the familiar faces, breathe the familiar air, atas tanahairku yang tercinta (haha) ...in mere 34 days!!! yeap! U read right, just a month now and I"ll be a happy happy HAPPY girl!!
I miss my family, my friends, the food, and of course my girls!!!

to you whom I dearly miss,
I will see you soon!! *hearts*

Recent updates

2010-03-21T03:04:00.005+08:00

It's less than 90 days before I get to meet loved/missed ones back in KL....

preplanned trips so far are as followed:

18-20th June, trip to Redang Berjaya with the bf and family
and then maybe on the 25-27, Malacca trip
and then maybe Sg trip with RSVP (get a leave for one long weekned or something!)
part time auditing (Jul- Aug)

Cant wait for all the long awaited meet ups and Showing Uffe Asia for the first time...
It's such a pity that they will only be in Malaysia for less thn 3 weeks. oh well, I"ll be back for 2 months! yay!
so anyways, I have loads on my to-do list.... residence permit extension, trip to UK, apply for 3rd semester electives, await results for 2nd masters application, visit Gothernburg, assignments (tonnes of readings) etc etc...

I so need an exercise regime to reach my ultimate goal of a FAT (fit and tonned) body for all the upcoming beach vacations..(89 days to prep)....

on a side note, had a random plan for a trip to Norway with a friend from Sg.... It'll be my first trip out of Sweden (besides to Denmark)... but schedule's a little tight, we'll see how it goes... with the trip to UK end of April for approx a week, I'l have lots of catchin up to do , mehh... but norway's fjord tour seems amazing..

To the special someone

2010-03-02T06:47:00.007+08:00

Thank you for loving me,
Thank you for being there
Thank you for helping me grow as a person
Thank you for being you =)

Happy 2nd Anniversary baby

the long awaited weekend

2010-02-12T22:17:00.003+08:00

So finally I"m done with my course on Science and the Media. Goood course, ,but the whole of past 2 weeks were horrid....sleepless nights and unbearable stress.... read more at http://rachelchee.wordpress.com (I know...i've been promoting it alot, but noone reads it anyways, then again noone reads the crap I write on this page either) oh well.

The weekend is here...it's going to be my first CNY celebration away from home. and my first Valentines Day with a legitimate date ~

so I was trying this organic DIY cider/honey/greentea face mask and it works wonders.... here's a video: (warning, if your face is already flawless, dont bother trying)

Gorgeous dresses on ASOS

2010-02-03T00:40:00.001+08:00

ASOS | ASOS Organza Contrast Bound Edge Shift Dress at ASOS

ASOS | ASOS Voile Bubble Hem Dress at ASOS

Annalynne McCord | ASOS Mesh Ruched Bandeau Dress at ASOS

ASOS | ASOS Jungle Rose Bandeau Dress at ASOS

SNOW STORM in Lund - Jan 27

2010-01-28T22:56:00.006+08:00

It was CRazy out yesterday...snow blowing at high speed horizontally. walking out on the streets was a major challenge. here's a video

We had a great time partying last night , celebrating Arjan's farewell. Playing out in the snow past midnight gave me bruises all over, but worthwhile..

2010

2010-01-19T06:36:00.011+08:00

Ok I know it's abit too late to say HAppy New Year, now that it's 3 weeks into the the year. But I hope everyone's having a great start so far!! If you look into my archives over the past 5 years blogging, I used to be pretty active at updating. I think my writing ~~inspiration~~ mojo is slowly disappearing. I just dont have the ~~time~~ dedication like I used to, to update you ~~non-existing and soon to extinct~~ loyal readers. My posts are pretty boring you see, those of you who know me well enough would know that I dont like reading, I simply DONT have the attention span to focus on a novel for more than 2 chapters. period. Hence, I am not a writer, as in I dont use fanciful flowery grammars and phrases, and as much as I admire and appreciate metaphors, I simply dont have the wits to conjure up beautiful metaphors to make my blog interesting. Hence the lack of writing, cos even I find my blog boring to read. If you read through my posts, my grammar is like everyday conversational grammar standards. so I apologize for my plain posts. Neveretheless I feel it is my responsibility to keep this blogpage going, cos 10 years down the road I think it'll be interesting to read what was on my thought right this moment. I must say my year 2009 had been a wonderful wonderful year. and I certainly ended it well. nwo that the new year has come, I look forward to acomplishing more resolutions I set for myself. Just mailed in my personal statements and curricular vitae for my 2nd masters programme application. the rest is up to Him now.

Many has asked why am I stupid enough to do a 2nd masters, so I think it's only fair that I share my part of the story. Post grad masters programme is not as popular in Malaysia, let alone a double masters degree. but here in Europe, many people are pursuing a msters degree. Especially when it's provided for free by the government, yes free, as in the government subsidises for foreign talents to gain masters education here in Sweden (with the people's tax of course). I'm currently enrolled in my 2 year masters programme in Society, Science and Technology and it has opened my eyes to alot of sociological studies and western insights to crossdisciplinary subjects. I am planning on taking a 2nd masters degree in Sustainable Business Leadership because I hope it can give me more insights on how to manage my scientific knowledge in the business field (at least that's what the course descriptions tell me). This 2nd programme will be done at the same time with my current programme's 2nd year period, which means by next year I will graduate with two degrees (fingers crossed). So I'm basically just equipping myself with knowledge from various areas and hopefully gain somethign useful from it. Apart from that programme, I have also applied to 3 other programmes (as a backup).

My decision to study here has been graced by God and my supportive family of course, only thing that I regret is that my parents would need to support me on living expenses for these two years. I'm praying that I'll get a decent job with good enough salary to helpout with my yougner sisters. Plan now is to pick up swedish in the new course that I just registered with Folksuniversitet, either work with a pharma-industrial company or do a PhD. I think doing a PhD could be good since I'd be paid to do a research in a field of my choice =) we'll see what happens from here on. I think I"ve been doing great so far on my grades. the Master programme is surprisingly not as difficult as I'd imagine it to be.

Meanwhile I"m working on a project for my current course on Science and the Media. we each had to set up a blogpage for discussions and feedbacks. I personalylfind the idea great , cos the lecturer gets to keeptrack of our progress and updates while we keep ourselves motivated by writing and updating at the same time gathering brilliant insights and ideas. You're welcome to visit and leave your comments at : http://rachelchee.wordpress.com.

On a less serious note, one of my new year's resolution is to eat healthier. Kaj n I have been living on loads of salad lately, like a piece of grilled salmon with a whole load of salad and some baked potatoes. I hope to live up to my other resolutions by the end of the year. Like pick up more skills, learn more recipes (owh we've had a wonderful Georgian snack the other day made by some lovely georgian people, got the recipe gonna try it out!!), go ice skating, travel around more, but also save up more, learn the language, get good grades, get actively invovled in international student networking organisations, etc.... Wanted to include like going to the gym but that would make "save up more" redundant. heee. everything costs so much here sheesh... Met some lovely singaporeans lately, they jsut moved into our corridor, finally some ~~noise~~ liveliness on our corridor, it's been so quiet last semester.... and the best thing is, finally I get to hear the oh-so-familiar "hometown-slang", the "mothertongue" -singlish- lol.... it may sound mean to say that I find the slang very funny, but I meant well.it brings so much warmth to hear the familiar tone/pitch/key in the "english"language that I"ve been lacking of much lately. especially since living with Kaj, though there are some occasions I realise, slip of the tongue. hhahaha i think my "manglish" has been compromised ~~corrupted lah~~...haha I miss home. Not gonna deny it. I'm looking to head home for a visit this coming summer break. Cant wait to see the familiar faces and see what has changed =) That's all for now, just some brief updates. Until the next inspiration~ !

here are some of the foods Kaj n I been living on, we're craving for a good plate of nasilemak or a big bowl of laksa tho!

Salad & Chicken/bacon basilica

Fish & thai mango salad
Some friends in Lund

The end is drawing near

2009-12-06T23:42:00.004+08:00

2009, ANOTHER YEAR HAS COME N GONE~
Had a wonderful first half of the year since I got back from Melbourne just in time to welcome a new year 2009 with my beloved family and friends. Time flew.
had some experience working, and loads of wonderful moments between January and July. come to think of it, it was a very very short period considering everything that has happened. too short.
Before leaving for Australia earlier last year, I'd imagine doing my post grad there after my Bach. degree. Never would have imagined then that I'd be spending the 2nd half of 2009 here in Sweden doing my post grad. Life has its many surprises. I have had a wonderful year thus far, thanks to the loved ones I"m blessed with.

So after 3 months of masters courses, I've ended my class on Governance of science(sociology) and shall commence with the seasonal holidays from here on...... lots of Christmas shopping ~~and baking~~ to do before the 25th....
Christmas decorations have been up all over since last month.... I wish I could share this beautiful season with loved ones at home.
As they say it here in Sweden: " God Jul och Gott Nytt år" (merry christmas and happy new year) Let us hope for a wonderful year that 2010 may bring~~ xoxo

(part of our class in the ESST program, led by Tomas and Olof, lovely bunch)

z' EEeeViiiiLLL washing machines

2009-11-27T08:42:00.014+08:00

Behold my lovely possessions: introducing Sloggi and LaSenza-

ALAS!! -NEVER ~~accidentally~~ THROW YOUR LINGERIE IN A WASHING MACHINE >_< *Heart-shattered*

Anyways, it's been awhile since I talked about dear dear Kaj. Hear's a shout out: LOVE YA HUN!

Sweden in the gloooms

2009-11-27T08:27:00.005+08:00

ALOT has happened since I last updated my blog.
I wont go into the details, just some updates from here and there....

About my studies...
I'm considering a 2nd masters Degree at the moment. and Maybe a PhD if all goes well. Is it a bad idea?? hmm......

Have been keeping myself occupied with studies, the daily chores (cooking n washing) and some travelling here n there, meeting new people.

The weather's been really gloomy, windy, and wet....not to mention the cold....
I am really looking forward to spring AND summer (when I'm back in KL for a holiday, yay!!)

Salsa @ Mejeriet

Nino and Gegi, lovely couple!

New Haven @ Copenhagen

Party @ Siri's

Ultimate animal cruelty.

2009-09-24T21:06:00.005+08:00

If you love dogs, you should most probably try your best to do something to help these poor dogs.
I"m no animal rights activists or anything, but I'm civilised enough to know this brutality is beyond comprehension and tolerance. I understand man eat meat, but if u must 'eat' ~~murder~~, there's no need for brutal torture, u could at least inject like how u get chicken or beef or pork for that matter. plus, dogs are highly intelligent beings, with complex emotions and senses. it's simply inhuman,. infact "inhumane" is an understatement in this case. how would they like see one of thei child, harmless, and defenseless murdered and tortured like that.....barbarians.......

Lund and its wonders - NOT

2009-09-22T17:49:00.007+08:00

the truth is, I've been really bored over the past several weeks. lonely, you can say. Kaj's got classes every single day, long hours. all I"ve got is just wedenesdays and fridays, and only a total of 3 hours of lecture a week. I'm pretty much free all the time. I need a part time job, but language might be a problem. or participate in some organization and be more active. I"ve been stranded home for over 2 weeks due to the horrendous flu bug i've caught. I"m much better now, thanks to the love and care I get. the weather's pretty unpredicatble, hot n sunny one moment and wet and windy the next....sighs.. 2nd October is when my paper assignmnet is due, not to mention the exams for my current course. STRESS.... shopping has been a torture. everything is too freaking expensive. it's such a pain to buy a piece of fabric, or meat. a plate of fried rice here could cost as much as a fancy fabric in Zara, Malaysia. nuf said. the language course will start pretty soon. hopefully I"ll grasp the best out of it.
havent got the inspiration to write much here on my blog. I"ll let the pictures do their talking.

Finally an update

2009-08-13T20:55:00.002+08:00

Hello world,

I'm back in Action!!!!! havent been updating much since there's been tooo much goin on, dont really know where to start with...
uplaoded pictures on Facebook to tell the story.

So I was in UK for about a week or two. Had a really great time there catchign up with Kaj's sisters and my relatives. Wil certainly be back there again when I have the time ~~and money~~ to.
Have been spending my time in Sweden for almost a month now. (yeap that's how logn I"ve been away from home, and I'm missing everyone back home alot) the people here are great.....i think sweden's at least twice the size of malaysia but population is only +/- 6 mil as compared to the 22-24 mil in Malaysia. go figure.
lots of events had occured. lots of fun. but I wish I cud share it with the friends and family back home.
got the keys to our new apartment now. a very new student apartment. very pretty. wil move in by next week. and then I"m looking forward to my Masters studies, wil b busy again pretty sooon.
will certainly post some pictures up sooon;)

ps: I'm missing RSVP get togehters . missing my BBFL >_<

2 days....

2009-07-01T12:03:00.002+08:00

it's wednesday alrd.....2 more days and I"ll be flying to London.
I am not gonna go all reluctant and all the bitter sweet crap again, this time I'll just say my goodbyes and will promise to be back soon enough... Wont be online much when I arrive.....
but thank God for the internet....will update all you readers sooon;)

packing status : 95% completed

bitter sweet

2009-06-27T15:59:00.002+08:00

Just ~~almost~~ done with my packings......actually i unpacked and packed again....sheesh took me hours, so much to SQUEEZE into one luggage.....

So I"m at abt 20kgs now, got about 5-10 more to spare.....that's if im traveling on airasia, but flight from UK to Sweden is limited to 20kgs allowance.... heheheh "get Kaj to help u carry the excess (Daddy 2009)" hehehehehe

sighs, ive been having alot of nostalgic feelings lately.... its a bitter sweeet feeling now that its only 6.5days left til D-day....
to think that I will be away for ~~possibly~~ a very very long time.... Mommy n Daddy wont be there when somethign goes wrong.....I"m on my own, wont have my favourties girls to hang out with when i wanna go "yumcha".... no shopping kaki......no movies kaki....... *SIGHS*
as much as I'm reallly excited to be in my baby's arms again and to meeet Sienbo, Sinda and their Mom.......and to attend Kaj's convocation..... I'm also very very "heavy liver" to leave..... in just under one week's time, I"ll be in UK at this hour....n thn continuiung to sweden, it makes me so so sad everytime i think about not having my girls there to "sampat" with me..... also regretting i havent been spending enough time with my ~~SUPER BUSY~~ family.........
*SIGHS.......*

on the brighter side of things, BBQ is on tonite!!! yay!!!! a smalll one tho, but jsut the way i like it, casual, easier attention sharing....... invited abt 20+ people but only 8-10 wil show, tooo bad it's a wrong timing, pple out of town, and busy with other functions....owh welll..... a smalll group would do too!!! cant wait for the girls'-sleep-over tonite=)

my new hair!!

2009-06-25T21:05:00.005+08:00

Took my sister and her fren to the salon to get their fix for the prom....I did my hair as well!!! (sun bin la) had my fringe straightened and my hair trimmed and some red-brown highlights *yay*
(note: it only looks decent cos it just got back from the saloon, I"m givin it 2 days top to stay this way lol)

(not-so) D.E.L.I.C.I.O.U.S

2009-06-25T18:56:00.002+08:00

had dinner with V n S at MV - DELICIOUS....... foood turned out not-so-delicious....it's just the tastebuds I reckon.... overall I"d rate it 7/10 We had the Spaghettini Carbonara, Duck*something* spaghetini, Softshellcrab salad, and a berrylicious pavlova..... the duck dish + the dessert was scrumptious....

Father's Day - 21st June 2009

2009-06-22T15:09:00.007+08:00

HAPPY DADDY's DAY!!!!
Also spent a funtastic evening with the wonderful people with "more wisdom"......
thanks Flo, Kai Yuan , Kheng Sin, Simone, and BBFL for the evening~
wil catch up soon again!

PhotoScape

2009-06-18T21:30:00.015+08:00

been playing around with the program I downloaded... here's the product:

Masters Programme in Society, Science and Technology

2009-06-16T14:33:00.002+08:00

...that's the Masters Programme I"ll b graduating with two years from now.....
So I"m getting questions about wat the course is about, what I wil be doin after I graduate...
honestly?? stay home, make babies and feeeed 'em and change their diapers ....
LOL..
ok seriously..... well, I havent got a clue quite yet at this point of time...... wat I DO know is I wil be able to find something im comfortable with.... I"m not picky.... What I like about this programme is that it covers a range of interdisciplinary areas, not jsut plain boring n deep science .....
so for the next 2 years, 4 semesters...this is what it's all about:-

THE SEMESTER MODULES:
Sem 1 :

module 1 = Scientific and technological change in historical perspective
"The module introduces and critically discusses perspectives related to social constructivism and technological determinism, and the emergence of large technical systems...
The role of actors such as entrepreneurs, engineers, and scientists, and of social conditions, such as educational systems, political institutions and income levels, is discussed - both for the creation and the diffusion of new technologies..."

module 2 = Science and technology from a business and economics perspective
"Key concepts are entrepreneurship, innovation management, and evolutionary perspectives.."

module 3 = Regional, national and global perspectives on science and technology
module 4 = The politics of science and technology

Sem 2 :
Specialisation course 1 = Innovation and Economic development in the New Europe : regional, national and supranational perspectives

Specialisation course 2 = Science , entrepreneruship and innovation in time and space

Sem 3:
"students follow elective courses, which are selected individually....courses with thematic links to their intended master thesis topic, with the aim to prepare for the actual thesis work..."

Sem 4 :
Thesis Writing.

THE CAREER OPPORTUNITIES;

The programme's graduates will be well equipped to find employment as science and technology managers, advisors, consultants, researchers, engineers, journalists, etc. The programme provides them with first-class competence to analyse and influence the economy's and society's response to the challenges posed by scientific and technological change.

How very " interesting" eh ....heehehehh cant wait....

Makan - Makan weekend!

2009-06-15T14:01:00.006+08:00

Had a dinner + karaoke session at my place with the relatives on Friday....an on saturday was lunch session at Aunt' Ruby's n on Sunday, it was tea-time at Uncle Johnny's ..........conclusion: I-N-D-I-G-E-S-T-I-O-N >_<>

sheer ~Randomness

2009-06-14T22:26:00.005+08:00

Dedicated to the wonderful souls.....

counting down...

2009-06-10T14:45:00.003+08:00

I'm leaving in 24days!!!!!! how crazyyyyy is that??
seems like only yesterday I was around Melbourne, hassling with my masters applications...... n that was in November-December last year....
and just over a Month ago i was anxiously waiting for the offer letter of acceptance from Sweden. and then there's the passport renewal, Application for my residence permit.....waiting for the approval, and then booking a flight.......and finally it's alll settled and done with....Thank God everything sailed smoothly......
now all's left to do for the remaining 3 weeks is to pack and say my gooodbyes.......
I know there are pple out there who are not too happy that I am leaving...... I can only say I'm sorry that I have to leave, but I pray that U wil be happy for me for I am genuinely excited to be starting on my journey there....but that doesnt mean u'll be forgotten, I"ll be back!! =p

ahh yes I"m leaving on the 4th of July...... lots of packings left to do, lots of sorting out and organising......

Will be heading to London for about 3 weeks, attending my babe's graduation!!! yayyy!! and then visit around...meet up with Aunt Elly and Juls......n of course I"m meeting Kaj's mom and sister for the first time......I need some serious nerv-o-therapy.........
after UK, it'll be Sweden.....will see wat happens whn i get there....

on a different note, I"ve been watching way too much of National Geographics' Air Crash Investigation on Astro.......the graphics are wayyy toooo horrifying>___< ~~(I"ll say bye bye now , just in case=p)~~

XOXO

Things I'm looking forward to explore in Sweden HINT HINT HINT

2009-06-04T15:09:00.012+08:00

So other than studying in Sweden, what else???....

1. The Food
I have to explore the foood and change my tastebuds to accustom to the flavours that Sweden has to offer=) not looking forward to gaining more pounds, although it seems like the very likely indisputable foreseen consequence........ I"m looking forward to learn some Swedish culinary arts, the spices, the taste and smell of a whole diff aroma, a new diet....interesting!!!!! wat's the desserts like? wat about appetisers? finger foood? snacks? beverages? 2. The Culture and Heritage
I'm looking forward to explore the very heritage of Sweden, the scandinavian cultures the people, the language... I wanna celebrate the festivals with the swedes, learn their language, understnad their histories, the arts, experience both the urban and sub-urban lifestyles.....I wanna see the old n historical architectures, I wanna experience wat it feels like way back then... I wanna experience the social culture of the Swedes...their everyday beliefs and practices.....it's goin to b a whole new different level of experience...I"ve never been to Europe, never really experience wat it's really like even though i've read and heard so much abt it...... it's stirring the anxiety inside of me, wonder wat it'll really be like whn i'm there.... fascinating!

3. The Climate
I've lived alll my life in this warm n humid climate of Malaysia (except in the whole of 2008 in Aus)...and frankly, I never liked the heat....so i guess going to Sweden is a good thing.....COLD climate for a change ! yay!!! I"ll be arriving during the colder seasons of the year.....once again im preparing myself to be wrapped-up like dumplings.... my only hope is that I wont get puffier liek i did befor ein Melbourne over the colder seasons.... I"m looking forward to alot of things really..... wats it liek to wake up to snow i your very own back yard (nto that i've never seen snow before, but thsi time it's gonna b diff) wat's it like to actualyl celebrate christmas with snow! n not heat for a change......or durng the spring or autumn whn it gets rainy n wet......or when i can go camping by a lake and be taken away by sceneries of Sweden during summers...... I"d like to go fishign by a harbour when i can, or go dancing at some festival , or maybe try doin somethign familiar back home but in a foreign land with a foreign atmosphere.......

4. The Tourist Spots
Themeparks!! - like in gotenburg Cities!! - like maybe stockholm? Museums?? Parks?? bars?? shopping?? The Famous Ice Hotel? maybe IKEA ?!! well im no tourist guide, I"ll let the locals take me around n show me everyhting there is to seee *hint HINT hint* 5. Travelling Heard it's easy to travel around inter-Europe cities...... would love to visit around....once again, I"ll let the scandinavian do the surprising *hints*

6. Outdoors
I wanna know what do the scandinavians do for leisure? over hte weekends? as individuals? or with their family & friends ..... camping, picnics, kayaking, snowboarding, fishing, cycling, rockclimbing, strolling, i'm up for anythign basically!! oh and do they have malls there? or wat's it like there? cos u knwo malaysian culture of hang outs = MALLS! i mean most of wat we urban/suburbans do whn we hang out msot of the time is jsut shopipng, eating, chilling, drinking, movies ~~marathon~~, bowling?.....

7. Living
ahh yes, the moving in.....moving and getting adapting is wat im looking forward to first and foremost, along with getting to know the friends and relatives......i'm so excited to look for that perfect apartment...move in, get settled, organise the furnitures, arranging the stuffs, makin everyday life comfortable......lookign forward to the stay-home-watch-TV-nights, or the laid-back-sip-a-coffee-~~while reading~~-on-rainy-afternoons, or the host-a-party-for-family-and-friends-weekends.........*beams in gleee* it'll b interesting to know that I'll be meeting many news faces, starting a whoel new social cycle (stomach churning) ....oh n did i mention mode of tranpostation wil b cycling????? ha! watch out Malaysia, next time u see me i'll have toned legs!!! also did i mentioned I'm currently at a very desperate state in search for cantonese tutors??? I am to learn cantonese in 4 weeks before i meet the "in-laws" (or so my family calls them =.=") ....pressure!!no, THE HORROR!!!! i'm not even gonna mention im actually half canton-blood ......(-_-""")................the the instant-self-humiliation.......so regretting not picking up cantonese earlier, well i guess now's the time to "hoi seee" learn (inside joke) ..........[u're suppose to laugh!*grins*]

There's so much for me to write here, but there's only so much i can plan until I actually get there.... doing all that wouldnt mean a thing if i were to do them alone.. I wouldn't dream of doing alll that if they weren't going to be realised together with my darling, min alskling....i'm so so excited jsut thinking abt attending his graduation in one month's time then doin our masters togehter in teh same university...baby, I'M COMING real soon!!!!!!!!
2 years ago, my dream for this very moment was to probably be stil doin my post grad in australia or somewhere working in KL/Sg/Aus....but I"m glad I met Kaj, I'm glad I chose to study in Sweden, I"m thankful that i've been blessed with everything God has provided me with, my only regret however is that I'll have to leave my family and friends behind...it's bitter sweeeet, it's not goin to be easy not having my pesky sisters around to quarell with, or a nagging mommy around to clog my ears, a daddy who's always there to make lame jokes to make my day, or SVP, who're always there when I needed shopping/movie/makan-kaki(s), noone to ppk me 24/7, noone to make me feel short, noone to make me feeel extra thin......i know they'll misss me n my sarcasm *tsktsk* (SVP,sorry that I"m leaving so sooooon, tolonglah jgn lupai saya).....as much as i'm excited im reluctant tooo.....but wait for me, I'll b back every year=)

and off I go packing.....bye world

min alskling...

2009-06-02T00:33:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 16TH MONTH to the special someone whom i love most dearly....

you have given me the perfect past 15 months and I am only looking forward to more wonderful moments to share=)

XOXO

Steph's 23rd Birthday

2009-05-31T22:01:00.011+08:00

and so the birthday girl was in town........being an air stewardess in SIA, "busy" is wat she breathes, eats and sleeps on.......... seems almost impossible to ever meeet her even once a year..... and so she's back for the weekends and her birthday was yesterday so we had to throw her a lil' surprise party ...... I"ll let the pics do the saying=)

;)

THE BIRTHDAY GIRL

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE~

To the hurt n wounded souls.....

2009-05-26T18:09:00.001+08:00

It hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return. Maybe god wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift. Love is when you take away the feeling, passion and the romance in a relationship and find out you still care for that person. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word and than walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. It's true that we don't know what we have got untill we lost it, but it's also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives. Giving someone all your love is never assurance that they will love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart, but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. There are things you would love to hear that you would never hear from the person whom you would like to hear them from, but don't be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from his heart.

Never say goodbye if you still want to try- never give up if you still feel you can go on- never say you don't love a person anymore if you can't let go. Love comes to those who still hope although they have been disappointed, to those who still believe although they've been betrayed, to those you still need to love although they've been hurt before and to those you have the courage and faith to build trust again. Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.

A careless word may kindle strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; a timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. The brightest furture will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, to teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate, long lost friend, lover, coworker, neighbor or even a complete stranger) but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happend to you that you may seem horrible, painful and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower or heart.

Everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or means of luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and cheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfort, but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life and the success and downfall you experience help to create who you become. Even the bad experience can be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or break your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Live your life with absolutely no regrets & always believe in yourself!

(NOTE: PLAGARISM FROM HENRY's BLOG)

And so......

2009-05-22T20:48:00.002+08:00

.....it's the weekends again!
.....I am bored......(-_____-""")

I can't believe it's been 2 weeks since I quit the job.....two weeks since I got my offer from Sweden......2 weeks of boredom, and I somehow managed to survive..... dreading the next 2 months x__X

My daily routine has only consist of sleeping, eating, ~~occasional~~ cooking, watching TV, gaming online, chatting on MSN, shopping, self-pampering, and then more sleeping.....

AND so.......I decided to blog about how bored I am......
well it hasn't been alll that bad, I had wonderful times hanging out with my babes, wonderful time just chilling......and certainly wonderful to wake up anytime I choose to (not that I wake up mid of the day) and not having anything to worry about (except to think of what to do now???

Was at a beauty-spa earlier with mommy had a facial treatment for 2 hours, and I think I fell asleeep =.="
don't think it did any good except creating more red spots.....

Yesterday was Jusco member day, and since I had alot to buy on my to-buy-list I thought why not head there early, skip all the crowd and SHOP!!! was there at 10 am with Sam, and the crowd was ALREADY unbelievable *shrieks*
neeedless to say, the both of us got very little from Jusco, instead finding ourselves in Parkson, Elle, PDI, Vincci, Opera etc......... and total amount I spent yesterday came out to be *drumrolls.............* : just over RM1000 *died of semi-cardiac arrest* where did the money go??????????? let's see.....I got lingeries, jeanss, jacket, boots, shampoo etc....>___< and that's not even half of my list yet............... gaaaaaaah

so amidst my boredom I have also come up with a to-do-list:
a) just keeep waiting till I get the Residence Permit approval from Sweden
b) get a plane ticket
c) pre-learn some Svenska
d) look up on recipe to teddy's favourites
e) pick up photoshop
f) Flexercise for stonger bones and muscles
g) keep my blog more updated
......to be updated......

Prison Break - Review

2009-05-22T20:44:00.002+08:00

'twas a wonderful show!!!! i was at the edge of my seat at every episode, season after season..... it's a must-watch TV show if u like action, drama, and a whole-lotta ~~surprising~~ twists!=) fun-tabulous!=)

Fav. Characters: Michael, Mahone, Sucre

She's the first.....

2009-05-17T14:16:00.003+08:00

.....yeah...the first to turn 23!!!!!! knew her back whn i was 15+ n now she's 23!! i've said it before and I'll say it again....TIME FLIES..... rmbr when we always said how life in ur 20s' zooooooms passss n before u know it u'd b in ur 30s' with your career on one hand and ur family on the other....... it's alrd begun.......

when we were 16......
she gave me this hedgehog toy with the sign saying "I love u" (stil have it with me)
we walked around the night market in the neighbourhood n I bestowed upon her the name " mashimaro"...

when we were 17.....
we ride on the bus together to n fro school
we did morning joggings, while she shares her story about her showering experiences at NS camp

when we were 18.....(the acne explosion days)
we hung out every now n then and gossip abt teachers and schoolmates.....
we complained abt the long boring morning 'perhimpunan' by the very long -winded principal

when we were 19.....
she lifted me up and carried my weight over her shoulders(literally)
we laughed at how our hair was...( the china doll and the atap-chee)
we laughed and sweat during cheerleading
we skipped classes to have lunch at one-utama
we did jogging in the mornings but end up talking abt the future at a playground and most of the time consume more calories(nasilemak) than we burnt

when we were 20.....
we registered for the same university
travelled early in the mornign to campus n leave the latest everyday....
we were together 24/7
she was the victim of my stalkers
she was my "shopping-twin"
we found C.L.O.V.E.R.s
we baked our first cake together
we trashed each other in pool....
we were always chilling at the students' lounge
I witnessed her go tipsy over tequilla sunrise for the first time

when we were 21.......
she was my companion thru the exam study period in the library
she was the car-jaga when i drop by at Dr. Ranjit's clinic to get my meds...
She was there to help whn I was moving out from home
she was bbq plaza's ~~employee~~ loyal customer
she was there at my party

when we were 22......
we were apart.
but close at heart.

n now... She's the first...... the first to turn 23!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!!

LIFE at a turning point

2009-05-10T19:06:00.003+08:00

1) I HAVE OFFICIALLY QUIT MY ~~BORING~~ JOB!!
started the job back in february.....wudnt say it was all dat bad, I have gained some experiences.... some were somewhat weird and awkward, some were pleasant....am reluctant to part with some of my colleagues.... as of today, it'll be the holly-daze for me (at least for now) =)

2) I GOT THE OFFER!!!!yes yes yes YES YESSsssss yESsssssssss =) the long awaited reply is finally here. Got the offer in Lund University ~~largest university in the nordic region~~ for the Masters Programme in Society Science and Technology...am looking foward to start the programme a.s.a.p...
What's an even better news is, Kaj's also accepted into Lund University for his masters programme. what are the odds??? *beams in gleee* "the Lord is my Provider......." thank you Lord for answering my prayers~~~
Semester shall begin in the coming fall, just a mere couple of months for me to get prepared and settled before i start nerding again.....

3) THE PREPARATION~
will be busy with sorting out what to do next, and how to get them done..... passports, visa, accounts, letters, acccomodations, tickets......etc.
If all goes well, I should be leaving KL ~~for good~~ in abt 2 months.....*prays*
thinking abt the people and things that I"ll be missing back here is not easy, as much as I"m excited......~~especially RSVP~~ :'(

Anxieties

2009-05-06T19:26:00.002+08:00

Work has been a pain-in-d-arse.......nuf-said
I've beeeen looking forward to mid of the year for ages......anxious nevertheless
Results for acceptance into my masters program wil be out by this weekend!!!!! i am so so anxious....so looking forward to studying there......, either way i know i wil be traveling to europe next month....another major trouble is, finances....... i'd hate to burden my old man, especialy now, when michelle's gonna study sooon n then the business n all >___< *sighs* ~~torn in between~~

My fate is written in the heavens.....I can only Pray to Him, n hope that my love ones wud pray with me, that everything will fall into place smoothly, pray that daddy wud be in His goood hands=).....

DrEAdFuLiCiTy

2009-04-19T14:47:00.006+08:00

aaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............................. it's back to reality tmr! my long comfortable wonderful holidays for 4 weeks has finally come to an end........ I reallly dread going back to work, now that i've been comfortably sleeping in every morning, hanging out with my darlings eveyr now n having the luxury of lazing anytime i like..... oh welll, think of the moooolahs......... the bestest motivation.......

I"ll be getting a reply from sweden next month....*nervousness*.............. fingers crossed again..... it's quite unlikely that i will get the offer, i mean i have huge competitions........ but if I do get the offer, my world is pretty much goin to tk a 360 deg turn around... i wil stop work n start plannings.....

it's been 4 days since Kaj left KL, n I really do miss him alrd......... cant wait for the next 2-3 months to zoooooooooom pass......yeeeeee-ha!

I feel like i'm running out of time.......

2009-04-15T14:44:00.009+08:00

3 weeks seem to pass too quickly, suddenly I find myself sitting in my rooom feeling reallly lonely... not jsut for the fact that i miss Kaj alrd now that he's on his way back to London....I feel EMPTY.... was just chatting with a fren from Melbourne, n recently i find myself reminiscing tooo much.... time flew passed too soooon n i am not satisfied with the way i have spent it....catching up with the ones I love is the ONE thing I 'm really REALLLY bad with.... i know they says "It takes effort to make relationships work" ..n since i got back to KL n started working, the only Relationship i've been putting most effort in is the one all d way to UK. not that im complaining, it's just that I constantly feel i have let down relationships i've had with my family, RSVP, the frens i used to talk to n see almost every other day, GOD, n the rlstp with myself.... I feel like there's so much more to put in n i've let myself down in that matter over n over...somebody teach me to manage my netwrkings n coomunications...it feels as if I've only been keepign in touch via MSN, which sux!!..the phone never seems like an option...guess it's jsut me....i rmrb the times back when i was studying, finding myself very connected to people around me, n now those feeling seem dull...... I dont even feeel connected to my frens anymore, it's as if there's a barrier.....maybe i jsu tmiss the times we talk n act crazy.....the times we made ~~lame~~ jokes n acted childishly.... ever felt like u wish u cud turn back time n make improvements in ur life? wat happen to those times whn u can have a fren right next to u whenever u needed one? i find everyone busy with their own schedules now.... n i'm turning 23 soooon...... wat happened to the times i cudnt wait to hit 21?? time is sneakily passing behind my back n it's giving me the creeps... recently just got invitation to a colleague's wedding next weekedns n i was stunt...to think he's actualyl younger than me, who wud 've guessed he's been engaged all this while....and I"d be lying BIG TIME if I were to say i dont miss the CLOVERS.....back when things were less "distanced"....back when we were actually living each other's lives...the times we (literally) laughed and cried together.... (girls, if u're reading tis, i think we sud meet up every weekends, before we turn 30 n meeting once a month is impossible....rmbr that's ONLY in 7 years, not far away...)

anwy, enough with all d emotional hoo-haas, I 've had a wonderful time whilst Kaj was here in KL. n I was blessed deeply by his presence, n kind heartly regards from his family... beinf apart 9 months wasnt easy but we made it, n the past 3 weeks with him has been wonderful, we shopped, movie-marathoned, ate, coooked, travelled......3 weeks felt like 3 seconds now.... n guess wat? we're parted again.....tis time i'm hoping I"ll make it to Sweden by Aug. if all else fails we'll jsut have to see where to go from there.... I know I seemed vanished fomr the face of earth for awhile.....from work, from msn , from my blog from my frens..... n I'd like to sincerely apologize, stil cant help feeelin guilty every singe day....
u noe wat sux most??? i hav eto get back to work again.......now that i've gotten to comfortable with outings , n home.....n bein able to sleeep in n whn i wake up there's always someone waiting to hold me n to talk to n who wud smile at me no matter wat, who makes me laugh, who makes me feeel like a princess......n on monday: WORK! sounds like an awfully harsh word........ "back to Reality *sighs*" (Kaj, 2009).......

Story of my life....flashing before my eye............ I neeeeeed things to slow down a little.....

I am Happy ^_____^

2009-03-23T11:05:00.003+08:00

yeap the moodswings are gone now........ moving on to the brighter side of things.....
guess wat? in approx 10 - 11 hours from now I"l be able to hold my baby in my arms!! yeap this adorable fella right here :
it's been almost 9 months since we last met (physically), n tho' we've been worlds apart/timezones apart, i think that only brought us closer n today's D-day! =o)
i sure hope he's having a pleasant flight on the plane.....airasia isnt exactly the kind of 'comfort' u'd wanna b stucked in for 13 hours!!! im gonna mk sure he gets the treat he deserves for coming down to KL! =D

I am not happy>___<

2009-03-17T21:30:00.002+08:00

Ever felt like u're uneased with the way u're feeling right that very moment n u just wanna blab everything out n release all that emotion off ur chest yet there's noone, absolutely noone, to turn to??....cos u know u sudnt feel the way u are feeling, or rather u think u dun wanna feel how u're feeling,...yet u cant help feeling exactly the way u are feeling???????? arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i sud b happy yet im not entirely happy? does that even makes sense? u think u sud be happy n u psycho urself to be happy.... or maybe u are happy but subconsciously the uneasiness creeps out n u're confused with ur own emotions.... (maybe im confusing u readers).....here's the thing, u think u're happy n thn u feel u're happy over somethign that's probably not there???? ever felt the sense of insecurities??? like not knowing wat may happen next? >_<

TIME

2009-03-03T21:20:00.002+08:00

I've been workin for a month+ without realising how fast time has past....i've been back from melbourne since over 2 months ago, n very reluctantly adapting back to the sticky-humid-hot-wet Malaysian weather....work has beeen tiring , but overall fun....
it's exactly 20 days til D-day n then I"ll be taking a break off work for several weeeks ......oh wow wheeee~~~~

min alskling, happy 1st anniversary! it's been a wonderful year..... alskar dig saaaa =) luv u luv u luv u

on another note, R.S.V.P has beeen wheeee busy over the past months, everyone's been busy attendign classes, interviews, working etc...... do certainly hope eveyrone's doin fine, P: dont stress out, do ur best ! S: stop spyign on pple's datas and laugh to urself.....V: stop snoring at night! hehehehhe

Oh how i hope time wil pass by faster=)

Valentines'

2009-02-15T13:20:00.005+08:00

Happy Valentines' all of u.... 14th the February, 2009......another post to my blog sayin the same ol' thing, 23 years of nvr bein able to celebrate valentines' ever....different thing is, tis time aroudn i DO have a valentine, just not physically around to celebrate the day with =) then again, everyday is Valentine's day with him.... so my colleagues n I celebreated the day at Putra Jaya's Convention Centre (oh did I mention i finally got myself a job) the day started off pretty welll, our branch decided that all of us, both guys n girls would go in "white", n we all arrive glamorously as if there was gonna be a wedding reception....(seriously, pple sud consider having one in putra jaya, the view is beautiful) ..we were at the reception area jsut chanting, cheering and dancing n photo taking , n networking....there were groups of pple who came in from the philipines, singapore, thai, indonesia, guests from australia, UK, holland, canada, etc etc.....a DJ from UK blasting the music in the hall filled with over a thousand pple, and the lights everywhere ...felt like some space like convention/.....the 2009 APPCO Asia rally was more like an award ceremony...its was pretty fun=) (oh n the girls got a rose each from our superior, but i lost mine hehehhe) so anyways, after the ceremony, my colleagues n I , all abt 10 of us, headed back to the city for dinner at some Pubish restaurant, we played darts, pool, fooosball.....n I must say, i totally kicked ass.....:p Valentines' spent with my colleagues was pretty fun, but it was having my actual Valentine close at heart that made yesterday a beautiful day..... n I am so waiting n loooking forward to the next couple of weeks/months =)
(check out wat i got for valentines')....how can I not b the happiest girl alive? *swooooooons*

back in action

2009-02-01T13:48:00.015+08:00

So ive been missing in action for awhile...... i apologize, i've been just too darn lazy to write anything...so many things to write abt i dun even noe where to begin.. been back in KL for exactly a month now....do I miss Melbourne? yes i did , initially..... now im jsut back to the regular same ol' same ol'......back to this boring "kampung" of mine...... n did I mention this kampung comes with the actual kampung-ish package? lalangs, amphibians and reptiles.....im talking abt massive lizards ~~with sagging chins~~ *shrieks*, snakes ~~cobra~~ and massive amounts of frogs.....talk abt freedom to run aroudn in a massive compound of a beautiful garden, im practically out of bounds.....there's certainly no way im stepping foot into the "beautiful" amazon my mom created....who knows mr. Anaconda is sneakily breeding somewhere..... anyhow, I do admire her work of art, i mean she practically turned this:

TO........

currently a graduate and unemployed sucks....when everyone's off to study and work, im left home with this ~~totally spoilt~~ fella...

Ive been job hunting since i got back.....attended several interviews, got called back for 2nd interviews.....hopefully i can start working sooon. at the mean time, just keeping my fingers crossed, hopefully i'll get the goood news by may/june and I cud b on my way to Europe to do my masters....
it's good to be back here in KL, all the RSVP goooodtimes.... *smooches*
it's great to be back to all the familiar surroundings...
it's CNY now, wud give tis celebrative season an 8 out of 10 for the goood foood n all the fun people, despite the fooood poisoning (speakign of which, I've been having 'em endlessly it seems, since i left melb.....)
to my dearest darling somewhere in an 8-hour-backward timezone, Happy 12th Month! thanks for the past 11 months dearest...u've been a great blessing.......... *hugszzz*
one final update, I"m FAT~~TER~~

hmmm.....other than those mentioned above, I"ll let the photos do all the other updatings
(click on 'em to enlarge)

LONESTAR - " AMAZED"

2008-12-28T12:33:00.001+08:00

Old School........but I absolutely adore this song..

JAG tänker av du

2008-12-19T20:17:00.001+08:00

JAG missa du älskling. Hur JAG tänka om du all tiden , daglig. och JAG er skrämt av förlorande du. hur Jag önskar JAG er närmast du till omfamna du igen. min älska , du er min en och bara JAG dont jämn veta om JAG siar den kärna orden. utom JAG gör veta JAG missa du så så mycket. fastän vi er talande daglig utom JAG fölar mycket ensam och tom insida. JAG hata min insecurities. JAG hata varelse så far bort från du.

PS: förlåtelse min dum svensk

GRADUATION - 11th DEC 2008

2008-12-19T13:41:00.003+08:00

the Countdowns....

2008-12-07T11:56:00.003+08:00

3 days to............MEETING MY FAMILY!!!!!
4 days to ...........CONVO!!
7 days to ...........GOLD COAST
18 days to.........Christmas!!!
23 days to.........HOME!!!
24 days to.........2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cant wait I cant wait I cant WAIT!!!!!!!
2008 has been an awesome year for me.....AWESOME>.......God has provided me with more than I cud ask for........and now, I'm lookign forward to 2009 with lots of hope and faith=) Family, FOOOD, home sweet home, MY Gorgeous BABES - RSVP (formerly known as the Cloverz)

(PS-ed Product COURTESY of SAMANTHA TAN YENLING)

~~kindly ignore my swollen-face~~ -_________-"

and then came December

2008-12-02T19:58:00.004+08:00

yeap, it's the end of the year again, " DECEMBER 2008...to some this may be the end of a chapter in life, while others find a whole new chapter beginning...... It's the festive season again, yeap I'll say it again : " Time DOES fly!" before u know it, I'd be down the road with a kid in my arms having roti canai for breakfast.....=_="
Is this how u're suppose to feel after u graduate? after all those ~~hardworking~~ years of schooling and studying? after a whole 16 years of feeding urself with all sorts of knowledge ~~trash~~ ? all those times u stay up late to finish ur assignments/ study for an exam u have to sit for the very next day? boy it feels liek my whole life ~~as a kid~~ just flashed before my eyes.......
I"m graduating!! can u believe it? I'm sorta officially ~~unemployed~~ a graduate from Monash University...... stil is this how u're suppose to feeeel?? to be utterly lost, not knowing wat to do next, not entirely thrilled, not knowing exactly how u got where u are now, not even knowing urself inside-out...... hmmm......... i'm kind of at a spot where i'm feeling all emotions at once, all sorta "rojak-fied"..... I"m excited, worried, stressed, confused, boggled, happy, not so happy, reluctant to leave, etc etc......all at once (@.@)

see this year has been a great year for me, it's been a fairly different experience this entire year, as opposed to the 21 years before I arrived Melbourne....... comign to a foreign land, adapting to the culture here, the climate, the standards of systems ~~which I am absolutely in love with~~....meeeeting pple from alll walks of life....meeting the love of my life.....being in touch spiritually with God more ....gotten to know ~~the other RIANG side of~~ yenling better.... obtaining overall much better grades than back in Malaysia... GRADUATING.......

I am counting down til the day I get back to KL, celebrate new year's with family n friends...oh n z' foooooooooooooooood!!!!!

HAPPY 10th MONTH HUN, thank you for the past 9 months min alskling........

OFFICIALLY..............

2008-11-27T22:01:00.003+08:00

...........a Graduate with a BSc in Science majoring in Biotechnology =)
wheeeeee~~~~~`
Congratulations peeeeeps!!!!!

Because I LOVE YOU

2008-11-21T13:30:00.004+08:00

.....here's a poem just for you:

Perfection in my Eyes

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,
And for us to be together, to never be apart.

No one else in the world can even compare,
You're perfect and so is this love that we share.

We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.

I promise to give you all I have to give,
I'll do anything for you as long as I live.

In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,
By the way you look at me I know we will last.

I hope that one day you'll come to realize,
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.

- Ashley Borden -

Darling, u've been the sweetest soul ever, thank you for always being there when I need ya;) I love you more than I could ever show, n I thank you for loving me so=) it's been hard being apart from you for 5 months+ how I wish I could be right by your side through ur hard times.... baby, I cant wait til the day i'm in ur arms again..... jag alskar dig=)

OCF Thanksgiving ball 2008

2008-11-21T13:09:00.009+08:00

attended the event last friday at Novotel St. Kilda.... it was a pretty awesome but short night....too short....

Like I"ve said, a million times before, I am so very reluctant to leave Melbourne in less than 6 weeks...I am even more reluctnat to leave OCF, espeically only having been here for so short a time.....*sighs* nevertheless, it's been a great one year ~~less than 10 months~~......to all the wonderful OCF-ers I"ve met this year :> It's been a great pleasure knowing u peeps!!The girls of "Just ZION"

JUST ZION

Jon our darling president

RuO my favourite boss from hell

Hweiming, one of just-zion's darlin' leader

The girls in OCF
and
I wonder who..........

when u finish your final FINAL exams.......

2008-11-21T12:58:00.003+08:00

....TIME PASSES FRIGGIN' SLOW.........

it feels like an eternity since I sat for my last paper on the 7th of November, but it's been only 2 weeks......urgh.... Lately, I've been caught up with the Tv series Gossip Girl, everyone seems to be talkgin about....a story about upper class school brats and their endless scandalous + glamourous lifestly......It's a pretty good show, I give it a 4.5/5 =)
(jsut so you know, there are more guys i know who are watching this show than i know of girls)
My fav character of all time is CHUCK BASS!!!! the ultimate bad boy with a soft heart inside...and is it jstu me, or does Chuck look like the Caucassian version of Taiwanese (or Hongkee??) actor Daniel Wu?? the way they walk speak and stare .........absolutely identical

I am gonna dig out other TV series too, I miss ugly betty, have not been folowing the series since the 3rd season was out....baaaahhh, mah babe and I miss watching it together:'(

(un)officially a graduate!!!

2008-11-09T18:19:00.005+08:00

the past two weeks were the longest, hardest, most torturous time of my life.......well it was jstu exams, the major finals like any other end of the semester...except that tis time around it was the FINAL finals... it was the Grand finale.....(fingers crossed)..

I cannot afford to screw up tis time or I"d be kissing my graduation scroll adios~
all those nights for the past one month, it's been coffee, tea n me.....the sleepless nights, the sluggish mornings, the acne bloomings, instant-meals-poisoning....is finally done n over with... n im FREEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (for now)......I was gonna post up pictures of gleeeful images that protrays my current state of ~~semi~~ euphoria, images that goes "aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" (in a I'm-on-top-of-the-world kind of expression, not the 'zakaria-farajoli' way....refer to yenling's blog)...unfortuantely, a certain roudned fren of mind stole that idea =.=" (u know who u are)
I havent quite grasp the fact that i am on my way to officially graduate with a BSc (fingers crossed...again).....not that it's a big deal, it's jsut a sheet of paper anyway......stil cant understand y pple like me have to go thru all the stress studying the stuff-i-dun-even-like, paying whole lot of muh-neeee, for the sake of a sheet of paper which tells nothing.....honestly.....sheeshhh......it's not like I"d understand or rmrb anything i've studied anyway....wat with the acethylamine? neiseeria gonnorhea? pylori? siRNA? signal transduction? z' "yyeg" is nothing but a protein"(Ram, 2007)? .....my point is......wat is the point anyway? to lose strands n strands of hair ~~n gradually turn bald~~....workin so hard for something taht's not exactly applicable in ur working field (unless u choose to be a scientisit who aims for aNoble or pulitzer)? I mean I can be some scholar with an average of high distinctions on my academic record (which im not), 2 years down the road i cant remember half of wat I"ve studied ANYWAY....... it's not like music...or arts....or even business....it's soooo ....out there, so applicable, so expressive, so engageable........unlike,u know, plain-ol'-boring "S"...
my final 4 paper was particularly stressful fo rme, the anxiety overwhelmed at times for this dood behidn my head kept telling me "rachel, u're screwed......."........
I think/hope I"ve done enough=) predicted results 1P3Cs? (i dont aim high)*fingers crossed*

anyways,anywho,anyhow......I've ended my time as a student, wow.......... it's been three (wonderful) years here in monash...... lets do a lil replay:
FIRST YEAR:
I came in low on selfesteem but filled with expectations and joy=) had with me the thought * I CANT BELIEVE IM FINALLY A UNIVERSITY STUDENT*
became a part of CLOVERS my bffs (check out the pictures of me below, i mean wats up wf the *peace sign* Zomg, n the dressing -_-)

SECOND YEAR:
elevated selfesteem/confidence, extended networking, extracurricular involvements, more achievements, loads of experiences in many ~~new~~ things, first heartaches, lots of embarassing moments, improved style/overall apperances etc

THIRD YEAR:
loads of fun, new environment/culture, warmth-deprived 90% of the time, met lots of awesome pple, a step up in my relationship with God, engaged in an intimate relationship with "Zakaria" (inside-joke), Met the love of my life (n then had to part for 6 months)...on my way to graduation!

Almost lovers

2008-11-03T22:01:00.002+08:00

THIS SONG's a real tear-jerker..........n it's such a beautiful rhythm...i absolutely love it=)
enjoy listenign to it peeps!!

p/s: not dedicated to anyone in particular heeee ;p

to min alskling

2008-11-02T09:11:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 9TH MONTH!!!

P/S: JAG ALSKAR DIG

Ordinary World

2008-10-28T13:13:00.002+08:00

The sun can't remember how to shine
And the colors all have faded into shades of gray
There's no life in this hollow heart of mine
Ever since you went away

Close your eyes and feel me hold you
Can you lead me through this ordinary world
Let the sky cry, restless rain to wash away the miles
Between us, 'cause without you it's just an ordinary world

If time could find a way to turn around
I would walk along the stars, till I was back at your door
Every word, every word is spoken but without a sound
And I found out what my heart is for

Close your eyes and feel me hold you
Can you lead me through this ordinary world
Let the sky cry, restless rain to wash away the miles
Between us, 'cause without you it's just an ordinary world

Hold your breath, here I come
Time to roll on mine
Take back, to your arms
Till we melt
Underneath the blinding sun

Can't remember how to shine
You're the life in this hollow heart of mine

Close your eyes and feel me hold you
Can you lead me through this ordinary world
Let the sky cry, restless rain to wash away the miles between us
'Till love can come redeem us 'cause without you
It's just an ordinary World

Frustration......

2008-10-23T02:14:00.002+08:00

Exam's in 4days.......soooo under prepared........*screwed*

sorry blog's been a lil' dead...... all d best to all fellow monashians.....=) especially to those of u who are graduating tooo!!! *hugs*

I am extremely annoyed and disappointed at the moment!!!!!! *SCREAMSSSS*!!!!!!!!!

All in a day's work

2008-10-11T09:51:00.008+08:00

so i woke up at abt a quarter to 10 yesterday morning, it was the sunniest morning in a long while......it's been 6 months since i last felt warmth in the morning....
woek up wf a smile on my face, I always do whn i wake up to a text from teddy every morning.. so the first thing i did whn i got out of bed was put on my bedroom slippers, walked out my room n greet vince "good mornign" like always (since vince is the only one always wakng up earlier than anyone else, needless to say, yenling is always after me, infact way after me heheheheh=p)
so i walked to the toilet with my face towel like every other ordinary morning with my eyes half closed hehhe, except only this particular morning i feel extra energized (msut be the weather i tell ya)..... i did my regular business, brushed my teeth, washed up, put on toner and moisturizer...n thn i took my laundry basket ( which, might i add, has been overflowing with dirty laundry since the week before) so i sent half of the laod to the washing machine n thn head to the kitchen....the recycle bin was full, the small bin was full, the trash bin was full (like every other mornings) since vince was out, yl's stil sleeping n I was in a hapweee mood, suddenly i find myself a housekeeping lady......disposed those filthy trash, empty the bins, washed the bin, line them with "fresh" clean bags, wash the dishes, cleaned the sink, wiped the cookgin benches,sweeped the floor, changed my bed sheets(also the very moment i picture myself in a black n white housekeepign uniform in a 6 star pent house fixing bedsheets.....how very "ambitious" of me), vacummned my carpet, n then off to hang my clothes to dry over the lines before i start the washer for the 2nd load of coats, jumpers, towel n sheets........ all that under 2 hours (n YL was stil sleepign then), n thn i took out a pen and paper n started listing down all the stuff i was gonna buy later in town( n thn the image changed from a housekeeper to a housewife.......the stepford kind, hehehehe not like the only mid age ~~senior-citizen~~ woman living on 54 samada, if u know wat i mean).....after hangin the 2nd load to dry outside, i came back in for a cool cup of milo for brkfast (since we had ntg else left to eat)...at that point the sky was clear and blue, not a single cloud spotted, and not the slightest breeze felt on ur skin, all u can feel is the heat on ur skin, the glare on ur pupils n the effing buzz from the flies in teh garden (yes flies, apparently u get a swamp of them infesting as the climate turns warmer)....n at abt 12.30 to 1, the sleepign beauty awaken, we headed to town as soon as we were dressed,(more like undressed, considering we were having less amount of fabric on whn we left the house than we had on for sleep the previous night)......YL n I had another oen of those crappy chats while we were on our way (as usual, whilst laughign our heads off)....
I am not gonna describe wat we did in town, or wat we bought in details, cos that's jsut a whole new story, the things we do, teh thigns we talked abt, not to mention the thigns we had on our TO-BUY-lists..... all that's enuf to start a new book entitled "How to spend big"
so we came back at abt 6pm and we spent abt an hour or two to unpack everything ( thank God for YL)..I started preparing the dinner for the three of us, after a long time anticipating, We finally got our hands ~~tongues~~ on some curry laksa (curry laksa paste+ coconut milk+mussels+ babyshrimps+ prawns+kangkung+egg+beansprouts mihun n yeemee etc).....man i love z juicy, yummy australian banana prawns!!! it's been like 8 months i havent had huge prawns swimming in my belly.....yummy!......one problem thou, the curry laksa, as it turned out, tasted more like prawn mee hehehehheheheheh (ooops i got mistaken prawn mee for curry laksa) owh well, stil was satisfied......
our fridge, freezer (s), pantry, ~~and the rest of the kitchen~~ was filled with foooooooooooooooood...yes lots n lots n lots of food, we wont be needing to shop for groceries in the next month + (we're stockign up for the exams).....let's see wat we have.....frozen food: lasagna, hotdog puffs, pies, apple crumbles, freid crumbed fillets, nuggets, steam fillets, wedges, pizzas, corns, etc etc etc.....snacks: marie biscuits, timtams, shapes, smiths, etc etc etc ETC.....drinks: ribena, juice, greentea, coffee, milk, etc.... can food: soup, soup n more soup, beans, tuna, pasta, etc....home: laundry detergent, dish detergent, hand wash, toilet paper, kitchen rolls, etc etc....the list goes on i tell ya, we each had a troley filled to the brim ( 3 huge troleys).... let me put it out to you the total expenditure for jsut yesterday....*drumrolls*..........$250(n that's JUST MINE).........go figure the total =) yeaaaap we eat...... ALOT=) well thn again, it's for 1 - 2 months=)

On a different note, abt me n Kaj, since I ~~STILL~~ keep getting pple askign me how am I holding up, how am i copign with the distance, how am I enduring the LDR yada yada yada........
we are fine=) I'm not gonna give up on our LDR =)yes i admit it's been tough, it always is isnt it? (i'm sure those of u who have been thru it wud agree, as for those who are facing the same problem, hang in there)....... We stil chat everyday (we both need it) although im dreading the fact that we are 10 hours apart, soon it'll be 12 hours apart whn i get back ......it's hard given the fact that i sleep whn he's awake, n he sleeps whn I"m awake....or we're jz busy doin stuff other times.....but we're hangin in there=) we're both very deeply inlove (well at least I am hehehehhe) but i cud nvr ask more than a guy like Kaj, he's wonderful=) i must say i totally love skype, especialyl whn u have the webcam video on widescreen....it's like life size:

I'm Yours

2008-10-04T15:21:00.002+08:00

MY current fav song.......... I love the video too it's soo carefree...... Jason Mraz is brilliant=)
I'm curious, is it jstu me, or someone in the video looks like brad pitt with long hair.....?? hehhe
I'm dedicating tis song to min alskling=)

Ps: I'm Yours =)

8th month!!!

2008-10-01T21:34:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 7 MONTHS DARLING DEAREST.........
thank you so so much for everything....
jag alskar dig saaaaa mycket min alskling...... jag behover dig for alltid........

p/s: remember our first lunch at joe's? u insisted on feeding m on every bite........... heheheh n the other customers from the other tables were lookign at us..... baby, I miss "us"....i miss you=)
HAVE A GREAT GREAT GREAT time in ur final year in Lancaster....... I will be here whenever u need me =)
* GOD BLESS YA *
*hugsz n kisses*

ENIGHT!!!!

2008-10-01T20:11:00.007+08:00

enight was so much fun.......... i am glad i have had the priviledge of bein a part of the E-night event 08'........dancing as a zombie and acting as a devil whose character is a attitude-ed black biatch was fun, the past two months of rehearsals aas tiring but all worthwhile!!!!!! I thank God for guiding us n leading us thru the entire processs.... wont write much abt it btu here are some pics.....

..............and then there's the number 22

2008-09-28T11:50:00.005+08:00

ahh wat beautiful numbers........TWENTY TWO......22!!!!! 22!!!! its not everyday u get to turn 22 u know.....n I cudnt be happier=) despite all the hassles with assignmetns and reports, not to mention all the dancing and acting rehearsals in preparation for E-night, i managed to pull thru pretty alright.... and with the midterm break finally here........it's allll goooooooooooooooooooooood... n so just a couple of days ago was my big day, I turned 22, not a big deal...but im feelign GREAT! I cant thank allllll my family, frens and my darling dearest of course, for blessing me with all the beautiful messages and surprises=) Thank you all sooo much=)

What if tomorrow NEVER comes

2008-09-16T18:14:00.003+08:00

yes I know, this title has appeared probably a couple of times in my blog archives......
but its the one question that's in my head all the time.......constantly asking to myself: What is there's no tomorrow??? but nvr succeed to find a definite answer, only to be overwhelmed by fear........ to lose a loved one is ALWAYS a fear........
so I ask all u rreader, What if tomorrow never comes? wat would u do right tis moment??
we often take life for granted..... not realising wat we're missing out....the people we neglect, the blessings we have....... n so on this very day, doesnt matter who u are, wat u've done, where u've been, where u are.....I challenge u to contact the people u've lost touch with for ages...... to reach out to ur next door neighbour or a colleague u've never spoken to.......cos at the end of the day, it's PEOPLE that matters....... Reach out to a stranger n befriend them.....
And Wat If I die tomorrow, n I"ve failed to tell the people aroudn me how mmuch I loved n care for 'em, or how much im sorry for the things I"ve done wrong.......................

P.S I MISS FAMILY, CLOVERS n KAJ sooooooooooooooooooooo MUCH

PUPPIES =)

2008-09-15T21:56:00.006+08:00

So jsut awhile ago my sisters got themselves a new pure breed cockel spaniel at the age of 1.5 years n named him Louis (dont ask me y a human name)........
n recently they got themself a new pup from a pet shop, a mix breed (i dont know of which) at the age of 2 months (he's worth RM25) named Jasper=)
the both of them never get along well........... I cant wait to meet the adorable rascals=)
n here they are......

E-NIGHT

2008-09-15T12:11:00.006+08:00

And so its week 10....... is it jsut me or time REALLLY passes FASTER than fast..... the Enight event on the 27th of september is jsut aroudn the corner, been attending abt 4 days of rehearsal per week, hardwork i tell you but FUN! So if u're reading tis post right now n U happen to be in Melbourne, do try to make it to tis event... its a play entitled : Hell's Kitchen........... come catch me dance n act....... it'll be held at the alexandre theatre at Clayton Monash Campus........ for more details contact me in person=)

A bunch of my frens n I hung out at the city yeterday for a round of karaoke, must sya it was pretty funny to watch the guys rap n all...... lol but finally in so many week yen n I got to chill out for a bit in the city......

Time dont just fly

2008-09-01T09:06:00.003+08:00

....... it zooms by like a rocket/jet/ watever u call it........ its faster than a blink of an eye........
I't sthe 8th week of the semester now...... 2 months+ since Kaj left, (we're doin good btw, so pple out there stop askign me if we've broken up or stil together)
Yeah the three questions I got pretty often since Kaj no longer is around:
1. Are u gusy stil together?
2. How are u guys holding up?
3. It must be hard isnt it?

honestly.....these questions........ they make me miss him even more =)
yeap we're stil very much together, holding up pretty well...... he's not jsut ur average everyday guy u noe....he's more thn a bf to me..... n yes it is hard being so far from him, cos I do miss him dearly and i care so so much, its hard not being there for him when he needs comfort.....but, WE ARE STIL VERY MUCH together =)

ahhh its week 8 alrd!!!!! been so busy with reports after reports, assignments and tasks and test, one after another......workload's pilign up tooo....... jsut nvr seems to end....yen ling n I have been stuck at home for pretty much 8 weeks now, nvr been goin out socialising, not even shopping (surprising aint it? especially for YL, hehehehhe) we keep saying we'll go the next weekend, n so the "next" jstu keeps coming n goin.....they come n go n before u kwno it tis week 8, the weeks jsut keeps getting busier.... plus there's rehearsals for me, dancing and acting for E-night....It's goin to be lots of fun...... I was sick couple of days ago, down with a slight fever, sorethroat and endless diarrhoea........ but I thank God for answering my prayers and for providing me with the wonderful souls aroudn me......owh n all the medications....*yucks* I was so ill i was sure I"d be dying fomr the pills n meds: panadols, vitamins pills, bacteria pills, honey lemon, herbal tea, barley, diarrhoea salt sachet, diarrheoa stoping solution etc etc...... But I'm glad Im back on my feet again! thanks peeps for lookgin after me=) and thnx YL for looking after me too (psst, she makes pretty good porridge=p)

n so its the 1st of september!!!! its a beautiful day!!!!!
darling dearest:
HAPPY 6 MONTHS!!!!
n so our 7th month comes!!!! I cant wait for more on the way) Jag alskar dig saaaa min alsking.....saaaaa mycket=)

BLUE

2008-08-13T21:44:00.002+08:00

ever wondered, why the colour blue describes sadness? sorrow? misery?
i dont know, but eveyrthign aroudn me jsut seems so dull and BLUE at the moment....i have no idea why....it's been goin on for a couple of days now...... there are thigns I'm not able to bring myself to talk to others about.... there are thigns botherin me at hte moment, but i jsut cant quite figure it out..... But it feels as if i'm slowly disappearing from this dimension, it feels like im slowly losing grip of everything..... it feels as if I'm losign my mind.....it feels as if i have no control over anything......ever felt like dat?
I feel it so much now.....so much i wanna cry out, but i cant anymore....its all stuck inside.....
so much i wanna pour out to someone, but i cant figure out wat....
that's the problem ,I cant figure out wats wrong wf me......
It feels as if im suffocated beneath a huge pile of "something"...... it feels as if im running towards nothingness.... it feels as if I have done eveyrhting wrong...... it feels as if im losing my mind....
there are times i break down n cry silently to myself......and many times im afraid i'm goin crazy....... it hurts so much when u're concealing all ur pain n sorrows with a superficial smile and laughter...... Im beginning to lose my senses..... i cant laugh or cry or smiel right now..... is there anyone out there who shares this same feeling as i do..... i could understnad why some pple go thru a mental break down....or go suicidal ..... or just a sudden change of personality..... there's so much in my head that's making me ache all over...... n my eyes n mind so sore, but I CANT FIGURE OUT WATS WRONG........ i might even soudn so so out of my mind right now, but who can understand me? all my life, i hide these emotions, i think its beginning to burst out now.... i duno....... i dun wanna go mentally crazy..... Lord help me, Guide me..... i have no one to turn to...well mayeb i do, but i cant.... I duno wats wrong..... I really dont....... wat is wrong with me????? this four walls surrounding me...... they watch me cry almost everyday..... n whn i leave tis room, i seem to be putting on a fake smile with me... i used to think i am an optimistic girl, i dun think i could be that girl anymore, i cant continue lying to myself.... i jsut dun really knwo who am I anymore... I need someone to understand my emotions for me.......cos im losign it...i really am...... have u tried tkaign a shower n suddenly u bend down start sitting there under the shower crying to urself over literally nothing? that's hwo i feel almsot all mylife..... I feel as if im slowly losign grip of frens...... I feel as if I cant connect to others as i used to, it is as If I'm losing social sense...... i cant deal with it any longer..... wil soembody help me?????

BLOG CELEBRATION FRENZY

2008-08-07T20:09:00.002+08:00

since my girl's been celebrating their blog update achievements.....i figured i sud have one for myself too...... lo n behold........*drumrolls*

HAPPY 220TH POST!!!!!!
(ntg significant, just a ~~obvious~~ statement that i missed my 200th post *baaah*)

Time flies...

2008-08-03T11:53:00.004+08:00

yeah who can deny, time flies........... i'ts august already! it seemed like jsut yesterday yen lign n I were fretting over the whole transfering procedures.....from booking flight tickets to getting a Visa n then actually arriving here .....n now we're on our way to graduating *fingers crossed*
the thought of graduation is inevitably bitter sweet........ im sure anyone who's been thru it wud agree with me
graduation.....as exciting as it sounds, its equally as terrifying......sayign i'm on my way to graduatin is as good as sayinn im on my way to a cross-road-point in life....there's so much to decide (n im expecting advices from those of u who long-graduated=p)..... all these while for the past 22 years I"ve been depending on my parents in almost eveyrthing......my decisions, my choices, n most significantly, MONEY.........I have been veyr veyr very blessed to have parents like mine...... now that i'm graduating things wil undoubtedly be different.....
im sure all of u would agree with me.....its hard now that u're graduating, every expenditure would automatically be your own responsibility....... not that i ever asked....... im very blessed for my dad provides me with monthly expenditure (including the extras) automatically, n i dun have to ever ask.......now that im graduating, it'll be naturally be my own responsibility for my own expenditure, in fact its gonna be hard for me to even say "dad, i dun need your money anymore" (in a polite way of course)......

n then there's the decision to make for wat i wanna do after graduating.......should I jstu go back to boring ol' kl n get a job...or continue with my post grad,i,e masters in somethign other than science,....... my dad n I talked abt it earlier, he did ask me to consider post grad and make plannings for it since i'm graduating very soon......but the question is......WHERE ? and WHICH programme?????? I really do not know...... atm i am planning on an MBA in something......n that's another problem altogether..... *sighs* all in all, which ever decision i make, I leave it all up to God's mercy and grace........ it doesnt matter much to me......i dont have a huge expectation in life......i dun aspire to be a superwoman in a career world, altho if i get the chance to be one it'll be awesome.......to me, I"ll take and accept anythign that comes my way...... all i wan is a simple decent life....... get a decent job im happy with, doesnt matter ifs its the same routine day in day out, as long as its enjoyable, altho it'll be great if there's excitement and challenges to face everyday=) settign aside career, wat i truly aspire is to have a beautiful blesssed family.......u knwo jsut the natural process of life....... breathe, live, have fun, work, breed, die.....lol.....(ok maybe u have better form/choices of vocab than me) but yeah u get my point.......
Kaj n I talked abt postgrad, since he' graduating mid next year....it'll be great if we get to do our post grad together, n since my family strongly approved of it=) but if that doesnt work out it's alrite...... I"ll just find a diff route =)
on a diff note, Justin n I were leading our cell groups' Bible study togehter for the first time....it was awesome, n we did a study on Philippians....so Paul said "for to me, to live is Christ, to die is gain"...how many of us can say "to live IS Christ"? I know , at least, that I cant....most of us cannot declare that, but we shoudl all at least say "to live is FOR Christ" make christ a part of ur daily life......for every moment that u live these days is strongly influenced by vanity....... tis is somthign i really aspire...and I believe we should all (at least to all ym brothers n sisters in Christ) pray hard for.....that eveyrone should have the strong will and faith in Christ that Jesus Christ, our Lord would have His way in us, and we woudl not be blinded by all the vanities of vanity of the world, but to live a life that's meaningful and gracious, so that even unitl the end of days, it would be for us like Paul "to die is gain", for then we can be united with our Father to live for an eternity.....It is somethign we all need to pray for...... its not easy I promise u, but its sumthign we relaly shouldnt neglect, amidst our daily routine, exhaustingn life......afterall at some point in life, pple always ask themselves " what is life for? what do we live for if our life on earth is ONLY temporary?" " ask urself if it is the hard earned money/status/ prada handbag that u want to carry with u til the last days of ur life?? or if it's knowing u have lived a life worthy of God's grace on us?" I believe, if u n I truly ask ourselves (n pray hard for it) we would have already known the answer....... so PRAY (with me)......

my dear sister Michelles is having spots all over her body, its possible dengue, I sure pray that she'll recover soon since her exams are jsut aroudn the corner....

its week 4 of the semester now....ahve a great week ahead all~~~

u have to watch tis

2008-07-31T19:15:00.002+08:00

THIS IS ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE!!!! it's inspiring and it sends out a message i truly beleive EVERYONE should keep in mind!!!!!
Love is always patient;13

love is always kind;

love is never envious

or arrogant with pride.

Nor is Love conceited,

and Love is never rude;

she never thinks just of herself

or ever get annoyed.

She never is resentful;

is never glad with sin,

but always glad to side with truth,

whene'er the truth should win.[b]

She bears up under everything,

believes the best in all,

there is no limit to her hope,

and she will never fall.

Love never fails

Thank you for the 5 months!

2008-07-31T17:49:00.018+08:00

Tis post is dedicated especially for my special someone, u noe who u are....... its been 5 beautiful months with u, although its been more than a month u're away...... and so its our 6th month now......I cant thank you enough for all the smiles u've put on my face......
CAnt thank God enough for blessing me with someone as special as u, who's not merely a BF, u mean more than that to me, so much more, u ahve guide me thru so many thigns, u were always there to listen, and u're always there caring.....n I"m always able to make u smile and laugh...... U"re such a charm n darling......

here's our many firsts moments:

our first group picture together!
our First picture together
our first Clubbing session
My first rose from u
our first kiss
Our first trip to the beach
Our first dinner prepared by me
Our first cycle together
our first bowling session
our first MOVIE together
our first hike together!
my first surprise for EASTER from u!
Our first month!
our 2nd month! (darn wind!!!)
our first neoprint together!
the first time u webbie from my house=)
(PS: i jsut realise u took sooooo many pics of me!!!!)

There's so many first times we shared in everything........n we've only got so many more to share in the future.......Baby, thank you for the wonderful 5 months....... it's our 6th month now=) I just wanna say I love u and thank you for all u've done and all that u are to me=)

end of 2nd week

2008-07-26T21:24:00.009+08:00

So the 2nd week came n go........ jsut came back from City Life earlier....I must say I had a great time there! thanks Darren for fetching..... n thanks Ru-O for makign me laugh so much....n thanks Ming for taking me there.... I'm really lookign forward to the semester.....my final semester *fingers crossed* the OCF upcoming events are : visit to the orphanage/old folks's homes and E-night " Hell's Kitchen" Well ntg has been happenign much lately, been makign chicken rice, nasi lemak past coupel of days....and tmr I"m makign the Tom Yum again, on WTJ's special request since ages ago .....sorry for the delay..... so ZION is back! will be joining the PBS (im guessing Pre-Bible Study) group this week to "practice co-leading" during BS....... anyways.......... was at the city last week for a karaoke session with some friends (pictures posted below, wonder wat happend to FB uploadings kept failing!) I certainly had a great time, am looking forward to more outings..... My darling's meeting my family for the first time, along with his sister Sinda who's there in KL for a short visit.......I sure hope they'll have a great time spent together......although I truly regret not being able to present for the lil' gatehring...... I miss you baby, and if u're reading dis, Jag vill vara hos dig Saaaaa.......sorry I"m not there rite now..... but decemebr is comign !!! I cant wait!!! and my darlign clovers!!! havent seen u girls back in KL for ages!!! I really cant wait..... its 137 days to go til my graduation....i'm getting really excited by the days..... owh and about gym.....ahhh gym......the sweat, the effort, the time, the determination and my body figure......I must say I stil have much to work on that last bit altho I"m happy to say I"ve lost abt 0.5kg in the past one week! (but somebody pls stop me from gettign out of my room in the middle of the night to have toast with chocholate spread!!!)

L.I.F.E

2008-07-26T20:52:00.003+08:00

What good would it be to ask for time to rewind,
When there's nothing I would ask to change....
What good would it bring to contemplate faults in the past,
For there's nothing u can do to change....

In my life I have encounter all ups and downs,
No doubt with it pain and sorrows comes...
Yet I've been blessed by the many souls
whose friendship and sincerity I truly cherish til the end of days

He has provided me more than I could possibly ask for
What more do I need when He has provided me with the essentials
We often find ourselves unpleased with many
forgetting to thank our Father who's guiding us and blessing us in so many ways

I urge u to not chase after dreams whilst neglecting wats important in life
I urge u not to overlook the small details that makes your everyday significant
I urge u never to lead a life u'll regret later for u only live once
n remember life's only as complicated as u make it to be

Live within ur means and look out for the PEOPLE around you
for they should be the center, for which your life revolves around.
Cherish every single aspect of your daily living
for when you go to bed, you should be feeling satisfied with yourself as much as others are at you
and when u wake up in the mornings, never grump, but be thankful that u've been blessed with another waking day........

Life should be colourful, joyful, grateful, cheerful, blissful, and POSITIVE
But we often find ourselves complaining for the bumps along the way
denying our faults and blaming others...
The choice is ours to make, our life's ours to LIVE....
life's short.......

semester resolution

2008-07-14T18:33:00.007+08:00

its the first night of the semester.......it's been a great day today, great start! i feel afresh! really looking forward to the semester n I hope all of u fellow monashians are=) Im really eager to graduate........ campus stil teh same as previous sem, altho it's way colder now........ it's great to see the familiar faces around campus again=) although I really miss having my darling around=) *149*
hehheheh

so.....the resolutions.......:
1. strictly healthy diet only : lunch = apple n sandwich
dinner = soupish meal with no carbs (or minimal carbs)
2. lose all the extras i've been gaining since i got here earlier tis year
3. do well in my final semester an graduate successfully=)
4. be more active at OCF n join citylife
5. sign up for the gym!!!! n achieve results as below:

or wat if i become............................... Nah...... Just Kidding!!

bottom line......stay healthy n fit! signing up for the gym tmr.....anybody care to join?

New Sem....n the Final Push!

2008-07-13T15:16:00.002+08:00

it's july 13th 2008!!!! the new semester commences TMR! 2008 2nd semester, my final semester before I graduate with a BSc Science (Biotechnology major) From Monash.......... *fingers crossed*
Here's me wishing all teh best to my fellow colleagues!!!!
n to alll Monashians, all the best in this new semester! look forward to al the new excitement, challenges and experience up ahead!

*God Bless*

NO AIR~~~

2008-07-11T19:14:00.003+08:00

I would love to dedicate the song currently playing on my blog to my darling dearest, just to let u noe no matter where u are or wat u're doin at the moment, I"m missing you=)
(music control on side bar if not playing automatically>>>>>)

NO AIR (Jordin Sparks ft Chris Brown)
Tell me how I’m supposed to breathe with no air?

[Jordin]
If I should die before I wake
It's cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air, oh
[Chris]
I’m here alone, didn’t wanna leave
My heart won’t move, it’s incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand
[Jordin]
But how
Do you expect me, to live alone with just me?
‘Cause my world revolves around you
It’s so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus-Both]
Tell me how I’m supposed to breathe with no air?
Can’t live, can’t breathe with no air
That’s how I feel whenever you ain’t there
There’s no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon be without me?
If you ain’t here, I just can’t breathe
There’s no air, no air
No air air, No air air
No air air, No air air

[Chris]
I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew,
Right off the ground to flow to you
There’s no gravity to hold me down, for real
[Jordin]
But somehow I’m still alive inside
You took my breath but I survived
I don’t know how but I don’t even care
[Both]
So how do you expect me, to live alone with just me?
‘Cause my world revolves around you
It’s so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus-Both]
No more
No air
Baby
There's no air, no air
Hey, oOoOo
Oooooooooooooh

[Chorus-Both]

2008 Sem 1 Results....

2008-07-10T23:38:00.005+08:00

I cant believe its the mid of July alrd.....been here in Melbourne for half a year....I must say it's beeen a great time......n I have only God n my parents to thank for giving me this once in a life time opportunity...... I have had an awesome time thus far=) Results were out earlier today=) am weeee satisfied with my results this time around....1HD 2 D n 1C.......im satisfied with Psychology and Medical n Forensics Genetics...... got a grade higher than expected....

Next semester:
MKC 1200
MIC 2022
GEN 3040
SCI 3094

I hope everyone's satisfied with their grades!
Last sem now....stil cant believe im graduating soon=)

PS: baby I miss you

the photos u've been waiting for

2008-07-10T20:56:00.003+08:00

our holiday

2008-07-06T19:18:00.003+08:00

n so the exams ended and we've (yen ling n I) been plannign on a trip to sydney and brisbane.... 28th of june, the day we took off on Qantas airline to sydney, the same date i had to see Kaj go off at the international terminal.....u wud have guessed he's leaving for sweden or UK but NO...he went to Thailand n wil be in malaysia for a month and a half before he heads back to sweden....my darlign dearest is now enjoying his trip in thailand with his close fren Bing. i hope bing's taking care of him......Baby if u're reading tis, please becareful whn u're takign ur diving test!!!! u cant swim for goodness sake!! I really really really relally reallly miss u baby=) i wish i cud be there wf u now in phuket.........Alskar dig saaa mycket=) n for ur wellbeing, forget the bargaining part n becareful whn crossing the road.....teeeheeee.......i hope u're enjoyign the cultural shock there hehehehe *huggiessss* and yes, i wont deny i really do dreadfully miss him soooo much...............baby!!!! I WIL BE WAITING FOR U =) i cant wait for 5months to pass..... (ok so much for bein lovey dovey n makign u readers sick)

so moving on to the trip.....yes we are now back at IVANHOE at yen ling's aunt's place... we had a great time spent at sydney and brisbane.... I"ll jsut give a brief run thru of our itenary:
- board plane on the 28th june 4 pm
-arrived sydney's Y hotel at Hyde Park, unpack, sleep (3 star hotel with no attached bathroom...had a jolly good tiem showering n gossiping n laughin n answering nature's call together-gether with yen lgin in the shared toilet)
-visited Hyde park > memorial thingy > st mary's cathedral
-walked to Darling Harbour > took cruise along the sydney banks > had lunch at the fish market > dinner at pancake on the rocks
- rent a car went up to Blue mountains with horng, jee, jon, SHE....hike 3 sisters (broke our legs) > dinner at bondi's Hurricanes
- checked out > depart from sydney to brisbane
-arrived brisbane > met preston > checked in at George Williams' hotel (also 3 stars but way better n highly recommended )
- dinner at a korean place > took a walk along brisbanes south bank
- visited Preston's UQ campus (realllly awesome campus. or rather picturesque as Preston wud rather call it) > took a cruise on the city cat ferry > lunch near the CBD opposite the story bridge > shopping at Queenstreet > camwhoring sessions
- trip to Gold coast surfers' paradise > harbour town shopping
- trip to gold coast again for movie world
Checked out on the 5th of july > depart at 6 pm back to melbourne=)

I would like to thank Jon n Yi horng for planngin the small ltour aroudn in sydney and preston for all ur trouble tkaing us girls around brisbane n GC ....we owe u guys loads n we had a jolly great time=) THANKS

(PHOTOS WILL BE UP LATER)

Ps: baby i miss you

I"m FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeee

2008-06-20T12:16:00.002+08:00

Exam's finally done with.....that long-horrid-sleepless-bookworming-but-i-stil hear-yenling-watching movies-next-door-NIGHTS are fianlly OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i havae to apologize for my long abandoned blog........so exams' over...next up- HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
our initial plan (just both Yen ling n I, since everyoen else are either back home or had earlier plans) was to travel to NEw Zealnad on our own.... but since it's goin to be cold out there, we figured it wud be a waste to travel to Sheep land considering there's so much to do n see outdoors, it'll b no fun to go there out in the cold.....
so a detour of plan!!!!!!!!! we're goin to sydney and brisbane n (possibly) Gold Coast!! Thanks Preston for offering to tk us on a local tour=)
n after returning to Melbourne, we'll probably go to mt dandy for mid year Xmas!!!!
n to wilson's prom again!!! also to visit mr Ler in gippyland=) whoa.....ther's heaps to dounder such short time=)

so much for our holiday vacation.........my baby darling is leaving!!!! in less than 1 week, my baby's packign up and leaving to UK.......(n yes fo rsome of u blurr pple out there, he's only an exchange sutdent n now he's leaving back to his home campus in Lancaster......n thn back hoem Sweden, n NO he's not from Korea.....) Baby, if u're reading tis, I"m gonna misss u heaaaaaaaaaps.......n I wil be right here waiting for u ( I pwomiseeeeeee) , only 5 months til my graduation n i get to see u again!
(thank you baby for EVERYTHING)

ah well.....not much to update abt my life here for now.......except that im gaining weight.........
I will update abt our trip sooon

wat a terrible GF I am.....

2008-05-06T02:08:00.004+08:00

well, i've been getting tonnes of interrogatings from back home lately...and yes I'm attached to an absolute darling.... my swedish teddy bear, none other than darling Kaj.......
well he's more than a just a bf to me........ he's absolutely wonderful...........
n as the title indicates, I DO MAKE A LOUSY GF!!!!!! especially since wat happened today!!!!!!! arghhhhhh *terribly embarrased*
ok it all happened earlier today when I was grooming, all of a sudden out of the blues the picture frame, given to me as a gift on our first month, was "calling" to me.........
(here it is)and yes.....for the past one month plus it's been sitting on my dressing lookgin pretty, n altho simple yet it meant so so much to me.......but it was only until just now that i realised it meant so much more.......
n so i answered the calling n as i opedn the back of the frame, to my surprise i found sheets of papers in it........i MEAN, it's been sitting there for the whoel one month plus n all these while i nvr discovered the lil's surprise!! (Baby, y didnt u at least hint me a little....ugh, im so sorry......)
n believe it or not i was sitting there for a full 15 min smiling to myself whilst reading them..... it's a wonderful 10 pages of "a hundred reasosn why I love u"...............100!!!!! but the best part was the end note, and yes, its a feeling indescribable, yet so genuine........thanks baby....

u give me at least a hundred and one reasons to love n cherish u.......
*hugz*

p/s: baby u're the best...n gosh some of the reasons are so so funny.....

My spiritual life

2008-05-06T01:59:00.002+08:00

I must say it's been a great blessing and joy to have joined the OCF (overseas christian fellowship)...... the people I've met here's simply amazing, and the warmth i get amongst them is just overwhelming=)
I must say I"m proud to be in "Just Zion".......the beautiful wonderful CG leaders, the bubbly president and the other adorable CG members..... n thanks peeps for the beautiful pocket bible......
I've been goin thru the prayer list emailed by our prayer coordinator, n it simply amazes me ....thansk Charis for all the effort and TQ for the prayers =)
coming to Melbourne most certainly was a right choice, and i have only God to thank for His grace in putting me where I am today, n bringing me to the many wonderful souls I encounter today.....every single day's a beautiful blessing to cherish...... and as I go forth this journey of reaching Him, I know i have the many angels aroudn me to guide me.......

What if tomorrow never comes........

2008-05-05T12:54:00.004+08:00

Death .....as we perceive it.....brings an overwhelming gloom......... it sinks ur heart and dries ur tongue...
my worst nightmare has always been losing a loved one, and I often find myself constantly praying over that matter......
I"ve recently received news of the death of a friend's dad back home in KL........and eventhough we weren't close friends, the news was jsut so heartwrenching.......it's such a tragedy to lose a family member, especially when it's due to accidents.....i mean it's unjust, when at least half of the entire globe is inhabited by pple who are not deserving of their lives or who are not appreciative of their blessed lives, and yet the innocent souls passes away from mishaps and tragedies, takign along with them the souls of their loved ones.... think about it, it can happen to anyone of us, and I"m constantly worried for my famiyl back home, especialyl when I'm so far away from home, all I can do is pray hard for htem every single day...... and to all my loved ones back home ,if u're reading this , i urge u all to please PLEASE take good care of urselves every single moment....
as for Joshua my dear fren/brother, my heart and prayers go all out to u n ur family....hang in there......... may ur dad's soul rest in peace.....
*GOD BLESS*

day out in Melbourne

2008-05-02T23:24:00.013+08:00

House special sushirolls >__<

Beef toban yaki >_<

Abalone + asparagus + mushrooms

Tempura with some yummy sauces

Black Cod in wood oven

Tuna Sashimi Salad

yellow tail sashimi with jalapeno

spent a day at the city with Kaj yesterday......thanks babe for the wonderful day out ;)
so we were at crowns arcade centre....(apparently i m a better arcade player!! woohoo) .....Ha! baby i beat ya at race cars, race bikes, the shoot out =p heheheh...
watched a movie at the village cinemas, ...patrick dempsey's so diff here compared to McDreamy........
so neway after the movie we headed for dinner, took quite a long time picking, finally decided on NOBU.........some celeb fine dine jap restaurant...... we had so much to eat that i was sick at the end of the meal..........honestly, the food wasnt as goood as i had expected, considering all the recomendations and its reputation........ i wud rather pay RM100 for a buffet at PJ Hilton's jap restaurant......or RM200 for sushi groove.......we had 7 dishes,the house special sushi wasnt even near GOOD n the raw beef nearly made me puke....
but overall it was a great meal wf Kaj, n then the bill came......AUD$ 190...nearly killled us.....thanks babe for dinner...but i guess it's a reasonable price for its atmosphere, excellent service, explicit presentation and it's global reputation....
the nite then ended with some camwhore sessions....... the weather's been pretty crappy lately, n we're all fallign ill......stuffing myself with loads of buffer C pills and Panadols >___<

Fresh Look! no?

2008-04-28T20:31:00.003+08:00

Ah yes! i have curled my hair ........nah, just a temporary Do....out of sheerr boredom........
wat do ya think??? hehehehhehehe

picture updates

2008-04-27T12:19:00.001+08:00

I'm too lazy to write abt life here in melbourne fro the past 2 months plus...i shall let the photos do the saying =p

i miss ma FAMILY

2008-04-18T15:40:00.006+08:00

n so its the mid of april ...been here in melbourne almsot 2 months.....n I would like to apologize toall my loyal readers for the lack of updates....n the temporary "closedown"

well, I"ve been living pretty well since i got here, (been gaining lots of weight, more n more "hock kee" according to Penny)

life's awesome here, n i dun ever wanna leave......been meetin more n more pple sinc ei got here........adorable souls, life's simply awesome.....n Kaj's jsut such a darling, thanks for being there ;) recently there's been some pretty strange occurances that's been bothering yen ling n I (n vince LOL) lately......it's been reallyl spookign us out and u noe that feeling whn u cant tk a shower during the nights alone without having a fren watchign the door for u outside , or look in the mirror when u brush ur teeth, or whn u walk pass a reflective surface u try not to look, afraid of seeign an image lookgin back at u (yet stil feel an eerie presence that sends the chills up ur spine???) yes, IT's All in the head....Alll in the head...... but seriously, this house has got soem spooks around.........wont bother elaborating ont he details....but it sure made vince n yen ling removing the spookey-fying portraits on the walls n had them replaced with frames of teddies and ballloons and rainbows......teeeheee...

have been stressign with the piles of assigments over the pass 7 weeks..........im glad that FINALLY i can have one peaceful and slightly stress-freed weekend.... been video conferencing with my family back home n i misssss em loads........ mom n dad doin fine, n dad whacky as usual...... sister's doin really great n i miss them heaps....esther's been growing taller n talller (definitely tlaler than me by now, n soon-to-be taller than mich).... n did i mention my sister Mich's a total genius???? she's recently gotten her SPM results........10 or 11 As?? how smart is dat???? all d best at college my dear.......

Vs'-day in Melbourne

2008-02-14T21:14:00.000+08:00

n so it's valentines days ....again....Valentines' day 2008......just liek any other regular Vday...liek the past 21 years of lonely valetines'...same ol same ol'....... tis time around it's in Melbourne tho.......a day of celebration for love in d land down under?? nah...it's pretty peaceful here, life's slow here.........its been quiet, peaceful, chilly, lovely since i got here coupel of days ago....it's been great here I"d say=) I'm lovign the weather and the pple.....sure i miss home, my darlin daddy and mommy, and sisters...n my frens n coussies......oh n I definitely am missing the FOOD back home.... currently livign at yen ling's relatives' house in Ivanhoe, nice neighbourhood really. altho it's generally the elderly here, but its a huge lovely neighbourhood, classy I"d say, yet humble, serene....perfect place for a home. we've only been here for 3 -4 days and it feels really at home =) it's hard to get home sick here u know.....great meals all day, great time shopping at a real real (n I do mean REAL I-so-didnt-expected type) CHEAP shopping.... well u get jumpers (good ones) at a dollar? SE S500i = $199? regular /large pan pizza = $ 4-5????? haha needless to say i've had a great time shopping for loads of stuff without guilt...yeah the three of us went shopaholic, naturally....lolXD uncle Andrew and auntThina are simply awesome. aunt thina takes us out for long shopping, show us around town, take us all the way to campus, n makes delicious meals=) uncle andrew drove us around, took us for sightseeing, help us out wf our lappies, n the entire family took part playing wii...it was pretty darn hillarious, u sud watch yen ling at wii-boxing.......speakign of which, i sudnt have "fought" so eagerly, now my right limbs are terribly aching @_@ owh n u sud see the Pavlomanolakos family cat named Molly - --> MOlly Pavlomanolakos, a big fat white long manja CAT..........its' a male cat btw...... n so we had a great time exploring the suburbs, from Ivanhoe to the city n to clayton.......I tell u , there's so much to talk abt I duno where to start with. I cud relaly relaly get use to living here.... who ever said summer's HOT???? b4 i came i was told to bring more shorts, thin clothings...cause it's summer.. but sinc ei arrived it's been nothing but COLD! chilly.........bt I like it loadz...... n becos of the weather, i reckon, eerynoe's hungry all teh time (well at least the three of us are).....yen lign n vince have been eating constantly........it's liek we have bottomless stomachs......eat eat eat eat eat n more eating............it's only the fourth day n I feel bloatted alrd.....@_@ give it a month or two..........use ur imagination =.=" neways i can go on n on for ages here, just tot I"d leave some updates on wats been goin on with my life in aussie now......to d preciosu souls back in Mas (u knwo who u are),dun miss us too much ....=) *pics to come SOON I promise* ;)

~Au revoir~

2008-02-10T00:51:00.000+08:00

so yeah, I"m leaving for Melbourne in less than 24 hours........it's bittersweet......n the butterflies im my tummy> cant tell if its the anxiety or the excitement.....
my room's a wreck now, lots of last minute packing n sorting outs..... guess I"ll be seeing the many familiar faces at the airport later.....
au revoir my dear family n frenz....(my sincere apologies to those of you whom i hadnt had the opportunity or time to meet/catch up with)

so for the next entire year ahead of me,shall see wats installed for me there in OZ...as for the rest of u heading down to the land down under, all d best in ur futureundertakings;)
*GOD BLESS*

CNY eve reunion dinner 2008 @ my home

2008-02-08T01:36:00.000+08:00

Events ( FEB 2008)

2008-02-07T15:42:00.001+08:00

Surprise gathering - Pavillion + SkyBAR:
I love the lil' surprise n u guys really rock, first people to ever manage to give me a real surprise (besides my '06 birthday) n I totally appreciate it heaps....thanks Penny Carol Adrian yen ling Henry, n James=) XOXOXO

Gathering ( noshame/tokkok/whitesox/boolatz/ etc etc):

Also present : Florence, Adrian, Rajiv, Wei Hong, Pravin, Raz, Neal, Alex
(other picz not with me)
love the lil' catching up n love meeting the new faces=) shall catch up soon!

ChaSiew faces lunch outing in KL:

my darlin dearest lovely coussie Carol n the annoyingly adorable ponkey Adrian
(being in the smae car with two really hungry cranky people in the middle of a jam lookign for parkign for >1 hour = NOT my idea of FUN...lolXP..........after two servings of lunch adrian went from @#!%$^@&@& TO _____________________hehehehe)

Gathering with cousins (Starbucks' damansara uptown - Jul's cum back from UK):

Time to Show.....Off !!! XD (teehee^^)

2008-01-28T00:16:00.000+08:00

Those who love orange say aye!!!
I adore oranges............but nvr was quite a fan of the colour, hated bright colours then..... but i hv been hooked n attracted to the colour so much so I"d look like an orange peel on the 10th of Feb at KLIA=p I know many of u wil b at the airport that nite so if u spot an "orange" wandering about...that's probably moi=p
so I've been shoppign alot lately, and unintentionally drawned to buying/selecting items in the orangey hue=p n yeah it's time to show off!!

1. My ultra large (-bigger-than-me-) luggage in Orange:

2. Me handy cabin hand-luggage in Orange:

3. My multi-storage/compact/pweeety notebook bagpack....in ORANGE:

4. My folder/notebook/stick-ons/highlighters/pencil case etc.........(yeah u guessed it)..in ORANGE:

5. presenting also................................the orange boxes n bags of my shoes n glasses i just got couple of hours ago LOLXP:

That's enuf of orange For now........more yet to come......haha.....bet u think im some freak =p

Top 10 on My "Things-to-do-before-I-die" List

2008-01-25T16:08:00.000+08:00

so its a friday afternoon...another friday afternoon......the end of the week has finally arrived . once again......
just made lunch, did some ironing....to think jsut not too long ago i was whining n complaining to have to do endless chores ..to cook for my family, to do everyone's laundry....its exhausting...
but i've been doin it for abt 2 months now, im getting so used to it alrd.....n in jsut abt 16 days all tis is over....... T_T part of me is just plain blue...to have to leave my family n frens n be away, leaving behind wat i've gotten used to for so long......
neways, was just thinking to myself, man have I got a long way ahead of me.....n I"m only at the very beginning of my journey in discovering n learning......I"ve got numerous stuff i MUST do before I die (hopefully) of old age.......

1. to have a satisfactory career
2. have a beautiful family of my own
3. bungee jump
4. sky dive!!!!
5. Charity
6. travel/see/smell/taste/experience the various culture of at least half of the globe
7. master latin dancing
8. own a golden and a persian
9. overcome my fear of lizards n reptiles
10. to know i have lived meaningfully=)

Matt. 7 :12
So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.
Luke 6:37
Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.

d days left in KL are numbered.....

2008-01-21T16:05:00.000+08:00

my visa's here.....everything's goin smooth.....been shoppign alot lately....stil lots to buy n pack before i take off to melbourne in 20 days..... was out to puchong on friday along wf penny , YL n James for a lil get together dinner n went for a late nite movie - The Game Plan - (feedbacks: great show) next day, on saturday evening, wen tout shopping wf dear cousin Carol at OU, had a superb dinner n long heart-to-heart cousin talk hehehe.........(Carol, dun worry, we'll get to b future sisters in law hahahahahahahahah).. we met up wf Adrian , Tien Loong and some of their frens for another movie - In the name of the King - (it was draggy, n some parts lame.....carol was laughin alot on my left, n adrian was busy yawning on my right...so I"d say it's a pretty interesting show =p).......ADrian Adrian....havent met him seemingly for ages....he's not changed much, altho i think he might have grown taller......or i shrunk (Adrian wud definitely reckon the latter =.=") neways ADrian, it's gr8 to meet ya again after a considerably long time...there's so much to catch up wf....not to mention the rest of the tok kok crew=) oh n do bring shley out on our next get togehter alrite=)
Carol n I thn reached home pass midnight...had a lil' sleep over...n of cos we as girls, naturally, wud camwhore =p (I"m gonna miss u loads whn im in OZ)

Maroon 5 'Won't Go Home Without You'

2008-01-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

one of their greatest songs i reckon......n it's got a real catchy tune to it....absolutely lurv tis song....
psst// Adam's pretty kewt ere' too.......

dum dee dee dum

2008-01-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

n so i got my visa application done, along with the health check up.... n I'm CLEAN=) so wat's left now is the visa approval=)
meanwhile.....i just got myself a new DELL inspiron 1420 lappie in lime green=) it's stil a virgin.....hehe shall leave it aside until dear henry d expert comes over to help me set up my precious new toy.....

i jsut got my hair doen today.....got it trimmed and straighten..... yesh again...... hey the last tiem i did was last april.......... its abt time i got rid of ma hideous hair (thnx penyn for constantly reminding me of how messy it's been...n i cudnt agree more, judging from the pics)....since i'm not allowed to wash my hair for the next three days i shall hibernate at home....besides, the new flattened do is kinda weird looking......
so in abt 25 days i'm takign off to melbourne..... dats' liek 3 weeks+ ....too friggin' fast if u ask me.... i cant deny bein excited ...I"ve been lookign forward to aussie....yet part of me is dreading to leave....leaving behind the land/thigns places, face that i've gotten used to for over 21 years......
Visa's not here yet, stil couple of things to settle too...... so it's stil not a 100% that i'll mk it to melbourne....until then, *fingers crossed*

on other note..... i've come across several frens who are, i wud say, not too happy lately..... i'm not good at consoling, so I"ll just do u guys a lil' prayer..... n hopefully in someway i cud channel some positive mood and joy to lift ur spirits up=) *God bless*

p/s : U live life only once, so mk the best out of it..... pay attention to the little details that puts a smile on ur face, n u cud b dat much happier.........find serenity in simplicity.............

Hanging out

2008-01-11T15:14:00.000+08:00

WED - 9th Jan 2008
was out shopping wf my Penny at the Curve /Ikano/Cineleisure...bumped into Benjamin...a dear old fren.... after d shopping we headed to 1U to meet up wf dear vince n yi horng for dinner.. after a lil more shopping we were at yen ling's place at abt 10 sumthing.....I"d say we were there "right on time"....we were welcomed wf tears n sorrow-filled faces upon arrival.. the whole atmosphere was gloomy, sad n depressing......yen ling's dear dear pup -Snoopy (one dog i'm always running away from everytime becos he jumps n barks furiously....but i gotta admit he's cute) was very veyr ill....he's been having liver / pancreatic problems for over half a year, n has lost plenty of weight, wf ntg but literally jsut skin on his skeletons, with mostly deteriorating internal organs....needless to say he's been very weak...
whn we arrived, dear yen ling was alrd in tears, with snoopy lying in a box completely weak, with a weak heartbeat, completely non-responsive, chill paws n dropped jaws..... n so we were there surrounding the box for abt 30 min, comforting yen ling, patting the dog....n then "his time" came...turned on his back, took his last breath wf a lil' struggle n thn he left for good.....there was a moment of silence n thn yen ling sorta broke down, watching yen ling n her mom soooooo upset nearly tore me apart....that was the first time i witnessed an animal in its final few moments.... i feel for them, but i guess it 's only for the better that dear ol' snoopy left, putting his sufferings to an end...RIP in snoopy boy.....1999 - 2008....
after the "funeral" took yen ling out had some drinks and games over at Friendster in Damansara Perdana....... came back pass 2 am, had penny stayed over.

THURS -10th Jan 2008
so we slept abt 4am n had to woke up early at 8 sumthign...Fetched my sis all the way to Puchong for a lil' gathering / outign for the church youths at putrajaya. penny n I later on met up wf dear cousin Carol for breakfast n headed off to Midvalley and the Gardens for some shopping...... had a great time hangin out wf u girls=) we shall have more hang outs b4 i leave for aussie....

speakign of which, I ahve yet to receive ma' eCOE from Clayton...I"ve been waiting for over a week......it had better come soon ...i need to get my VISA.........*fingers crossed*

RACHEL . PENNY .CAROL
enjoy the final few glimpses of ma' curls.....i'm getting rid of it for good soon.....